a new beginning

[Luc1238]

The void. What an interesting and disturbing concept. The fact that everything goes back to nothing which will once again create everything, a never ending cycle. But I'm not here to speak to you about some of the grand philosophical theories I have. Well it's not the will that's lacking it's the time. Maybe in due time you'll learn how to appreciate the beauty of nothingness.

After all nothing is everything I see when I look out the window. But maybe I should start this story at the beginning.

Everything started the day everything ended. I imagine you think I'm being metaphorical again but no, this story starts the day of my death.

It was actually a pretty ordinary day. People were coming and going in the street like everyday. The same people doing the same thing again and again and again…

Just the thought of myself doing the same thing everyday in my life makes me feel sick.But this world evolved like this so it has to have a reason to have come this far.

I am a man. I won't describe myself as handsome that would be lying. No, I'm just a man trying to live in this pathetic world to the best of my capabilities.

This day started like any other day, I woke up, cursed the world and started my morning routine which mostly consisted of convincing myself that I had to go do something. As for what that something was I can't quite remember it but it should have been school or work I was a pretty basic man after all.

After all the trouble that getting out of my house represented, I found myself on the street doing the same thing that the people I despised two minutes ago were doing.
I hated myself for not being able to do as I pleased and to not have the will to rise and be someone.

But more than that I hated this world. This world where strength is something that is not that useful. A world where strength is defined not by oneself but by either the unity of a group or their armament.
I'm not a gym bro not because I don't want power, no. Power is something I crave not for its benefit but just to be powerful, just to know I can have the means if I ever have the will.

No i don't go to the gym because in this world what good are your fist gonna be against a gun.

Power the dream of every man even if it can come in different forms. The power of wealth, the power of the country but in this world the power of self that i crave so much is restrained. Someone can only get so strong in a lifetime.
Just imagine training your entire life Just to get offed by a nobody with a gun.

This particular day proved my ideologies right because not even five minutes later I'm face to face with a very drunk guy saved by his airbag while everything under my chest has been crushed between his car and the wall.
All the will I have was concentrated on how to survive only to realize. I was done for. The last thing I could do was curse under my breath for that bastard to die or at least suffer.

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When I opened my eyes I saw something magnificent and terrifying at the same time. I saw nothing. not the nothing of space no, just an infinite nothingness painted in a black that never saw light. Everything is so black that I don't understand how I am even seeing the black.
Wait now that I think about it, how am I even seeing? I'm pretty sure I died two minutes ago.

"You in fact did die." The word resonated with me deep down. Not in the metaphorical sense mind you. I did not hear these words. They literally resonated in my being as if I was made to understand the word and not the opposite.

As I turned to look at the source I saw someone. A normal person was unexpected. I kinda thought it would be a giant of light or something similar. The man was a light chocolate skinned man with short hair. He had a hoodie and was playing on some console that I actually don't recognize.

"Sorry if my arrival lacked some flair to it but i don't like the complicated when the simple can do" announced the being. And I have to admit that hearing him talk without him talking and without listening is a strange experience.

"Most people don't like when i read their thought but you didn't even think about it"

His surprise is unexpected but appreciated. and while i can't speak for everyone most people aren't dead.

"That's right, why aren't you freaking out. You just died."

Your questions are strange. They don't feel like asking questions more like you know already but give me a chance to speak.

"If you already know why not just answer the question."

I can't actually answer if I can't speak.

"You know that's why I don't like the thinking type. like just go with the flow it'll be easier for everyone"

Ok i'll stop questioning you. But only because you said I'm smart.

"Never said you were smart. you think a lot but you're stupid. It just means that you think a lot of stupid things."

Well that's hurtful but i like not being too smart so let's go back to the subject. Why can't i talk?

"Cause you're moronic ass would not shut up about nothing."

Fair point.

"Well this is the afterlife i got reincarnation heaven and hell for you what you want."

Can I get more details on these choices?

"As a matter of fact no. You already got enough karma to choose, so be happy with what you have."

Alright then I think I'll take heaven. Hell seems like a problem and reincarnation is a middle between the two. So I would much prefer to be happy.

"Smart of you. you don't realize the number of morons that take reincarnation thinking they're gonna be protagonists or some bullshit like that."

Now that I've chosen, can you expand on what the choices mean?

"Certainly, hell is for the damned. They simply go back to their world of origins without memory if they didn't like it or they go back as someone who they wished they weren't in their world. Reincarnation is just that they wake up in someone, it can be different species like cat or dog in a random world they mostly won't really like and then there is heaven." At this point he finally looked at me leaving his game for the first time since the start of the… discussion? or is it a monologue. Either way he seemed pleased as he gazed at my… I actually don't know but I would say soul. "Heaven is like reincarnation but you can change the specifics and you get a wish."

Damn, I got the jackpot.

"You're right now for this wish, can we speed up? I have to gloat to somebody." He said with a creepy smile stretching his lips. Seems like he won but i won't complain a happy god is a good god.
For my wish I want …

"What an interesting wish. I filtered it to create surprise but it's really good." He said looking at something in the void.

I don't understand what you mean by filtered?

"Don't worry about it, you won't be concerned in the short term. Now let's go back to your wish. it is totally acceptable and is already done so bye.

Wait wha- my thoughts were interrupted by feeling. I could feel my body, feel my senses and the world around me. Opening my eyes I saw a library and I could feel a grin take place on my face. It's the start of a lot of adventures so "Let's start."



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please tell me if you find any error be it in way i could get better at writing or my orthography
English isn't my first language I'm french so i did and will do the best i can
I'll try to have at least two chapter per weeks