"Don't make this philosophical, Cassie, because philosophy has nothing to do with it. What I want right now is to protect Amira. I don't plan on getting us both killed." Picturing them all getting themselves killed in an unwinnable battle keeps strangling me from the inside. I don't want to see that happen. I don't. "And what does that question have to do with how terrible this plan is?"
"I was going to-"
I cut her off, "Appeal to my emotions to get me involved? Well, you affected me one way. There's no way in hell I want to watch my family die… because that's exactly what you're asking me."
No hopes of success.
No way of winning.
Cassandra doesn't say anything, instead she opens up my blue vested coat to reveal the base of my neck. There, where the sternum is, is an embedded black hilt. "That's our key. That power of yours, Lyle. If we could use that then it'd be a sure win!"
My eyes widen.
This.
This thing in my neck.
Embedded onto my skin, the bone.
When I pulled out that 'blade' as a child. The explosion, the energy that shot off caused this 'hilt' to become embedded into my body. It hurt. It really hurt but I think, because of it, I survived that blast.
That's how I'm alive today.
But now… being asked to utilize the same power that destroyed my life? For the sake of some rebellion, a revolution to upheave the entire slave market?
Many more people would perish than necessary to fulfil the mission. That much I can confirm right now.
"Maybe it's fate, Lyle. The power that destroyed your life could be used to restore others." she says that with a frown on her face.
"Don't spew that bullshit on me." my arms start to shake. My fists clench.
"Huh?"
"You want to use me as a weapon, something to kill others. That's it. I see." my body goes listless. "Amira," I start my way toward the door. "we're leaving." I look over to see Master gulping down any alcohol he can. By now, he's already wasted.
"Okay!" she gets off from the bar and comes running over to me. Immediately she holds my hand. "It was pretty scary over there. Everyone was so weird…"
"Yeah, this place is weird." I walk out the entrance.
"Lyle? Are you okay?"
"I am, yeah, I'm perfectly fine." No, in fact, I'm not. Cassie brings up that damned thing in my neck when I'm doing my best to forget it exists. If I acknowledge this piece of crystallized Void in my neck, then I'm just going to have more nightmares that I don't need.
"Liar." she breaks through my ruse.
"Yeah, I guess I am." I don't feel like playing this comedy routine right now.
"Master, you-"
"DO NOT CALL ME THAT!"
Amira cowers, "I.. I didn't mean to."
I go silent. There are people around me just staring at my display of anger.
I can't believe I just did that.
I bring Amira into my arms, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that. I'm… no, I'm not fine. Let's just go back to the inn. We can talk about it there."
She nods.
Neither of us say a word before getting back to our room.
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Hydewell Inn - The Gale Whickett - Lyle/Amira's Room
I fall back onto my bed.
My arms are out.
My legs are spread.
I heave a sigh.
Amira does the same exact thing on her bed. I turn my head over, smiling, "You seem like you had a good time today."
"For as short as it was, yes, I did. There are some nice people here."
"Yeah, there are some nice people in this big world of ours." I think back on my experiences exploring back up in the northern continent. I met some nice travelers, some mischievous thugs. There are people of all kinds. "There are some bad ones, too, Amira."
"There are?"
"Do you remember your Masters? The ones who bought you for their own pleasure?"
"Uh huh. What about them?"
"They were bad."
"They were? They fed me and clothed me. They couldn't be that-"
"They were bad." I emphasize, closing my eyes. "Putting a girl like you through such disgusting…" my hands crease the sheets. Thinking about it just brings the anger back from before. I breathe in then out. Getting angry about it will solve nothing. "Stay away from people like that, Amira. Nothing but trouble." I get straight to the point so I don't have to dwell longer on the topic. "Anyway, I'm glad you had fun." Now I start thinking about staying another day so she can keep on having fun.
The only thing she did was watch me walk around, get into a fight, meet my Master and see him drink himself silly. Maybe tomorrow we can do more fun things before leaving. That's the least I can do for her.
I freed her, I took her in, and she's my responsibility.
That's why I can't fight with you, Cassandra.
I want to save her happiness, give her the life that you and Master allowed me to have.
When she feels like she needs to leave, I will not stop her.
As she is now, she can't do that.
I have a gut feeling that if she were to leave right now… she wouldn't be able to survive.
She's your responsibility now.
Master's words from earlier echo in my mind.
When did you get so selfish?
"I don't know. I guess I always just thought of myself, thought about what would make my life better." I close my eyes.
The bed creaks. I open my eyes to see Amira lying on my right arm, looking into my eyes. "Do you mind if I um…" she shuffles for the right words to say. "Sleep here tonight?"
I look out the window to see the sky dyed a red hue. Yeah, it was about time for me to get to bed. We haven't even gotten cleaned up yet…
Oh well, it was a long trip from Erealoth to Blackmoore. "Sure, Amira."
"Thank you…" she mumbles while cuddling up beside me.
I should've realized that she's actually a pretty frail girl under her clueless 'aura' that she puts up. I saw that much when I yelled at her on the way back. "Sorry." I apologize again before closing my eyes.
I drift off into sleep.
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The Next Morning
"Ahhh." I let out a yawn. "Hmm.. Amira, are you awake?"
She's still sleeping with her head tucked into my chest.
Ah, alright, now this is another dilemma...
[_] Get up, we have to get an early start today.
[_] Let her sleep for just a while longer.
[_] Get up without disturbing her (try your best! Roll 1d100)
[_] Custom