Morning Visions
Lorenz112
It is never easy to be a mage. Never been, never is, never will be. Simple lesson, and simple truth. The hard truth, too. Painful.
It is never easy to be a warden. The warden. Blood-stained cloak, that never actually carry any blood; silver sword and blazing glory. No, not really. Mostly, death. Sometimes pride.
It comes before the fall or so goes the saying, and it is right. Kinda. Sometimes — not always — but it is, now.
It is never easy to die. Not a complicated process, mind you, but tiring. Bloody and painful. Sickening. Awful. Always scary. Every time feels like the first.
To be a wizard is a lot like to live under a death sentence with an open date. It is written, it is neatly packed in the corner of the table, and you never know when someone will sign it. Never. Even if you are the best fortuneteller in the world.
It sucks, in a way.
Silver sword slid through my throat easily, leaving a clean cut. Work of a true professional. Not a work of art, but can find a nice place in a case book for junior wardens.
Man, who is stepping over my body, is wearing a nice three-button suit. It is black, too. Very suitable for a funeral.
Morgan is nice like that.
When I wake up I feel like I shouldn't have bothered. The throat is sore — no, not sore, not really. It is the wrong word. My throat feels like it was cut in two. Burning, with blood trying to get out of it and with a strange, cold feeling deep in the brain.
One out of ten experience, definitely would not recommend.
I try to stand up and walk — well, mostly crawl — my way into the shower. Cold water is nice. Fresh, clean and disturbs magic, too. All things I strongly appreciate.
Beer and ale, vodka and sake — every vision is similar and yet disturbingly different. They are almost the same but have nothing in common. Time, distance, longevity, mood — I have no control over them. Visions just come whenever they wish to, tear my had apart and are gone as nothing had ever happened.
It fills a lot like I am sitting in front of a broken radio and try to figure out the whole picture from thousands of pieces.
Why would my teacher and life-long superior kill me? Or, to be more precise, when?
It can happen tomorrow, in twenty years or never. All with equal chances. Besides, I had not seen myself in the vision — thus, no idea about my age relative to today. Sometimes you can see certain marks, like tattoos on skin, or date in a newspaper or something akin to that. Still, it is never a guarantee. Newspaper in a glimpse of future can be old or intentionally misleading, you can get yourself tattoo exactly because you saw it in the vision, and self-fulfilling prophecies are notoriously hard to deal with. Cronus, Oedipus, and Paris would agree.
Prophetic visions are many things, but useful they are almost certainly not.
The phone vibrated, loudly, demanding my attention. Someone needed me, urgently. A sound made my head itch from pain, and damned thing burst aflame with a loud squee sound.
«Damn you!»
I almost shouted, but words had not left the throat. Words have power, you see. It is not a good idea to damn something — anything — if you don't really mean it. Especially when your magic is disturbed after a BDSM fuckfest codenamed «visions».
I am whining, aren't I?
I picked up a second phone — stationery, old, with a rotary dial. It was made in ninety sixties, and still worked, if barely. I found it in the Edinburgh flea market almost three years ago and it was working as well as you might expect. Still, it was better than nothing.
«Edward Carpenter speaking.»
«Good.» The teacher's voice was cold, calm and not a little bit tired. I have no idea when he had slept last time with all that black court thing going on, but it wasn't working out for him. «I need you in Rosehill Cemetery in four hours.»
I smirked.
«They are hiding in a graveyard? Really?»
Blacks have many weaknesses, churches and blessed land — one of them. To hide anywhere close to cemetery and corpses was… an option, I guess. If their big boss was good in necromancy or at least knew what he is doing. Not so bright otherwise.
With how badly black court was wrecked in the last century, chances were that he did. Dumb and feisty do not survive that long in the after-Stoker world.
«Had your talent brought something of use?»
«You sliced my throat with your sword. Do with it what you want.»
Morgan grunted.
«I will prepare a counter to mind-altering spells.»
«Or any other spells, really. I can give you ten mutually exclusive reasons for this happening.»
Beeping met me instead of an answer. Morgan, for some strange reason, was sure that my visions actually were useful. I had no such delusions but had no problems with indulging his curiosity.
If a man wants to know one of the thousands of versions of our fucked up future he can be my guest.
I finally gathered myself and put pants, shirt, and jacket on. No tie needed, thank god. I hate those nooses since school.
Morgan loved classy suits, ties, and cufflinks. He also believed that stern look and formal suit ofter work better than the most powerful veil and in our line of work it meant a lot. Besides, if we really are going to the cemetery, the black suit is truly for the best.
View from the window was rather pretty. Nice studio on the thirty-first floor, high enough, that most people and energy they carried with them were left below. Besides, I had a view on the harbor and park in two minutes distance.
Despite Chicago being my home city, Council treated it like a business trip. Meaning I got all my traveling, food and living expenses covered, in addition to getting a hundred bucks a day as a bonus.
I truly love my job. Sure, it may suck sometimes, but I get to shoot fireballs at people while getting paid handsomely.
Against usual habits, I decided not to put on a cloak yet. It was too much of a symbol to just walk around in it. Call me superstitious, but I believe in the importance of symbols. Of power, of faith — whatever. Crown for royalty, stuff for a senior mage, warden cloak and silver sword for a council law enforcer.
It just seems wrong to show them off while being off duty.
Thus I put grey cloak into the bag, covered sword in the veil and left the apartments, renewing guarding spell on a doorstep. Many would call it stupid, to stay in a rented property without a proper threshold when you have a true home, where you are always welcomed and loved, but…
I have my reasons.
The door closed, leaving only a weak guardian spell and a neat pile of clothes behind.
There still were four hours before the dusk, and I had a meeting to attend to.
It is never easy to be a warden. The warden. Blood-stained cloak, that never actually carry any blood; silver sword and blazing glory. No, not really. Mostly, death. Sometimes pride.
It comes before the fall or so goes the saying, and it is right. Kinda. Sometimes — not always — but it is, now.
It is never easy to die. Not a complicated process, mind you, but tiring. Bloody and painful. Sickening. Awful. Always scary. Every time feels like the first.
To be a wizard is a lot like to live under a death sentence with an open date. It is written, it is neatly packed in the corner of the table, and you never know when someone will sign it. Never. Even if you are the best fortuneteller in the world.
It sucks, in a way.
Silver sword slid through my throat easily, leaving a clean cut. Work of a true professional. Not a work of art, but can find a nice place in a case book for junior wardens.
Man, who is stepping over my body, is wearing a nice three-button suit. It is black, too. Very suitable for a funeral.
Morgan is nice like that.
When I wake up I feel like I shouldn't have bothered. The throat is sore — no, not sore, not really. It is the wrong word. My throat feels like it was cut in two. Burning, with blood trying to get out of it and with a strange, cold feeling deep in the brain.
One out of ten experience, definitely would not recommend.
I try to stand up and walk — well, mostly crawl — my way into the shower. Cold water is nice. Fresh, clean and disturbs magic, too. All things I strongly appreciate.
Beer and ale, vodka and sake — every vision is similar and yet disturbingly different. They are almost the same but have nothing in common. Time, distance, longevity, mood — I have no control over them. Visions just come whenever they wish to, tear my had apart and are gone as nothing had ever happened.
It fills a lot like I am sitting in front of a broken radio and try to figure out the whole picture from thousands of pieces.
Why would my teacher and life-long superior kill me? Or, to be more precise, when?
It can happen tomorrow, in twenty years or never. All with equal chances. Besides, I had not seen myself in the vision — thus, no idea about my age relative to today. Sometimes you can see certain marks, like tattoos on skin, or date in a newspaper or something akin to that. Still, it is never a guarantee. Newspaper in a glimpse of future can be old or intentionally misleading, you can get yourself tattoo exactly because you saw it in the vision, and self-fulfilling prophecies are notoriously hard to deal with. Cronus, Oedipus, and Paris would agree.
Prophetic visions are many things, but useful they are almost certainly not.
The phone vibrated, loudly, demanding my attention. Someone needed me, urgently. A sound made my head itch from pain, and damned thing burst aflame with a loud squee sound.
«Damn you!»
I almost shouted, but words had not left the throat. Words have power, you see. It is not a good idea to damn something — anything — if you don't really mean it. Especially when your magic is disturbed after a BDSM fuckfest codenamed «visions».
I am whining, aren't I?
I picked up a second phone — stationery, old, with a rotary dial. It was made in ninety sixties, and still worked, if barely. I found it in the Edinburgh flea market almost three years ago and it was working as well as you might expect. Still, it was better than nothing.
«Edward Carpenter speaking.»
«Good.» The teacher's voice was cold, calm and not a little bit tired. I have no idea when he had slept last time with all that black court thing going on, but it wasn't working out for him. «I need you in Rosehill Cemetery in four hours.»
I smirked.
«They are hiding in a graveyard? Really?»
Blacks have many weaknesses, churches and blessed land — one of them. To hide anywhere close to cemetery and corpses was… an option, I guess. If their big boss was good in necromancy or at least knew what he is doing. Not so bright otherwise.
With how badly black court was wrecked in the last century, chances were that he did. Dumb and feisty do not survive that long in the after-Stoker world.
«Had your talent brought something of use?»
«You sliced my throat with your sword. Do with it what you want.»
Morgan grunted.
«I will prepare a counter to mind-altering spells.»
«Or any other spells, really. I can give you ten mutually exclusive reasons for this happening.»
Beeping met me instead of an answer. Morgan, for some strange reason, was sure that my visions actually were useful. I had no such delusions but had no problems with indulging his curiosity.
If a man wants to know one of the thousands of versions of our fucked up future he can be my guest.
I finally gathered myself and put pants, shirt, and jacket on. No tie needed, thank god. I hate those nooses since school.
Morgan loved classy suits, ties, and cufflinks. He also believed that stern look and formal suit ofter work better than the most powerful veil and in our line of work it meant a lot. Besides, if we really are going to the cemetery, the black suit is truly for the best.
View from the window was rather pretty. Nice studio on the thirty-first floor, high enough, that most people and energy they carried with them were left below. Besides, I had a view on the harbor and park in two minutes distance.
Despite Chicago being my home city, Council treated it like a business trip. Meaning I got all my traveling, food and living expenses covered, in addition to getting a hundred bucks a day as a bonus.
I truly love my job. Sure, it may suck sometimes, but I get to shoot fireballs at people while getting paid handsomely.
Against usual habits, I decided not to put on a cloak yet. It was too much of a symbol to just walk around in it. Call me superstitious, but I believe in the importance of symbols. Of power, of faith — whatever. Crown for royalty, stuff for a senior mage, warden cloak and silver sword for a council law enforcer.
It just seems wrong to show them off while being off duty.
Thus I put grey cloak into the bag, covered sword in the veil and left the apartments, renewing guarding spell on a doorstep. Many would call it stupid, to stay in a rented property without a proper threshold when you have a true home, where you are always welcomed and loved, but…
I have my reasons.
The door closed, leaving only a weak guardian spell and a neat pile of clothes behind.
There still were four hours before the dusk, and I had a meeting to attend to.