The Questionably Upbeat Depressive

So, Depression. I have noticed quite a number of forumers mentioning it on a way or another in their profile posts. So I figured if people are asking for help, I could do something, little as it is.

I can't cure Depression, not even the best medicine can. I can't even do all that much. But every bit helps.

So I've been there.

Feel free to skip that part:

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It started once I entered college, for I have gone to live with my grandparents. I love them, I really do. But they are complicated people and that affected me.

Not noticeably, but around two years later, the situation worsened, because I had problems at work(I owned a bakery) requiring me to fire an employee and personally work in her place.

So I worked around 14 hours a day 7 days of the week for around a full year, dealing with my grandparents issues in the time in between.

I got hit with depression. Badly.

My parents intervened, brought me home and I stayed a full year just to get those issues under control.

But I managed.

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Well, so I got it under control. Not Cured, there's no known cure for depression.

There's treatment though. And I'm not speaking of medicine. Most drugs prescribed funnily enough have depression listed on their side effects, so I don't recommend those. I won't comment on my personal experience as even more than a couple pills of Dipyrone are enough to make me cry uncontrollably, so I say as one who have more than a few cases on the family, which only worsened with the add of medication.

Manipulated Serotonin helps. Floral Remedies help too. But they require a doctor to prescribe the correct formula and dosage though. Look for one, but don't think they alone will do all the work.

Depression is less of a physical problem and more of a mental issue. What worked for me:

Find the source of your depression, and get away from it.

Care for yourself, and find people who care for you. Family, friends, acquaintances from internet, every bit counts.

Good, Positive Thoughts. Seriously. If you have two dogs, feed only one, and pit them against each other, which one is going to win? Same problem here. Feed your bad feelings, and they will overwhelm the good ones, making you feel down. Feed the good feelings, and they'll beat the bad ones into the recesses of your mind. It's not easy. But it's the best long term solution.

Get yourself busy. Seriously, I cannot stress this enough. Idle minds wander, and depressive minds wander to bad places. Seriously bad places. It gets worse at night, where you have to lie down to sleep, but your mind puts you at a bad feedback loop. If you can't sleep, read a book, manga or something, do not keep yourself in bed thinking it will go well. It doesn't help. Thinking of something else does.

It might not work at all for someone else, but it worked for me. I hope someone find this thread useful, and that I didn't sounded arrogant. Seriously, I'm not infallible, in fact I have been receding into it these days, only I refuse to accept and give in to the dark side.

I'm back on my Flower Remedies though. My solution on a personal level was to open up a new story thread and force myself to write stuff on it. Sometimes it comes easily, sometimes I sit on the computer and stare at the screen and nothing comes out even after re-reading what I have twice or thrice.

Then when I get bad thoughts I look at my likes and force myself to think that people care for me even if only because I can write and entertain them. That I am important to someone and someone will miss me if I disappear.

 

Thanks. Seriously. But I'm on a good day. I just took the first step to hopefully give a friendly push those who need help too.

I'll also go back at staring at the almost blank Complex Relations chapter in my other tab. Thankfully because I'm too busy to write, not because I'm unable to.