Disclaimer: I do not own Star Trek, The Next Generation or the Klingon Empire. I'm also not going to be making money from this. These are all my own words, nothing is plagiarized.
Note: This is an un-beta'd version of my chapter, I'll upload the edited version when my beta comes back from holiday. If you spot a grammar/spelling mistake tell me. If you think I need to change something for better "word flow" or what have you I'd appreciate that as well.
Further Note: It never made sense to me how small Ten Forward was in the show, for a total population of 6,000 people you'd think the only mess hall would be a lot bigger, like 20 times larger at least. Yes, I know crew quarters have replicators too so most probably eat in their rooms but it still seems too small, especially considering the mess hall in Voyager was roughly the same size but had a much smaller crew. In this story imagine Ten Forward as being about five times bigger. On one side you have some large windows looking out into space, on the other you have the bar, Guinan is only the main bartender, there's usually one other, as well as a couple waitstaff for the tables (I know it doesn't make sense to have waiters since people could just walk twenty feet to a replicator but it's canon, I guess even in the future people are just lazy). The ends of the room are quieter and less busy. It's still a military starship though, no dance floor or speakers blasting EDM or whatever, it's mostly a quiet place to hang out, grab a bite and look at the stars.
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Chapter Four
Stardate 44012.5
Lieutenant Reginald Endicott Barclay is in hell. He doesn't even know why had to go to the award ceremony or the afterparty now taking place in TenForward. All he had done was help repair the main deflector after the discharge knocked it out. Sure, their quick repair allowed the Enterprise to chase after the Cube, which led to them rescuing Picard, which then led to Picard and Data figuring out how to blow up the Borg, just in the nick of time as usual, but he was only part of the team. The whole crew had gotten a commendation and Riker, Data, Worf and the other Klingons like that General Durass had all received medals from President Inyo himself on the front steps of the Capital in Paris this afternoon, just two weeks after Earth was saved.
Said award ceremony had been a nightmare in and of itself, though thankfully they shuttled them down rather than use the transporters, the flyby and landing looking more dramatic than them just beaming down, at least Reg was spared from
that at least. Reg isn't good at standing at attention. He tends to fidget, then once he catches himself fidgeting, he'll consciously force himself to stop and soon enough all of his focus is on not moving and that's when the panic typically sets in. It's the same reason why meditation has never worked for him despite Deanna's attempts. First, he'll forget to breathe right up until he almost passes out, then, after the following gasping breath he'll focus too much on the breathing until it's all he can think about and then he starts hyperventilating. He once spent a whole day in a panic when he thought his mind had forgotten how to unconsciously breath and he had to consciously breathe the whole day and by the next day when the crisis was over, he felt like he had aged ten years. Parties, though, are worse, because at least with those other things there's a build-up to panic, with the parties the panic is immediate and lasts the whole way through. Even then it wouldn't be so bad if there was a side-room to duck into or a coatrack to hide behind, TenForward doesn't even have a coatrack!
/not the party, just thought it was funny/
At least Guinan has been kind enough to rescue him by constantly plying him with hor'dourves whenever she passes by with a new plate, but even chewing
very slowly as an excuse not to speak has only accounted for a quarter of his time so far. None of the hor'dourves so far have been very chewy so he probably looks like an idiot for chewing for so long. It's now been half an hour; he's starting to feel full and he's sure people are staring at him wondering who let the weirdo in.
Deanna had promised to help but she eventually got pulled away to talk to some sleazy politician and is now sending him concerned looks every couple of minutes. Now though, he's alone, standing in a corner wearing his dress uniform and wishing to any god who'd listen that some long-dormant chameleon genes in his DNA would activate so that he could camouflage into the wall. If only he were so lucky. Barclay is currently quietly watching the Klingon General Durass talk with some of politicians invited to the party, though talking isn't the right word for it. The man is easily conversing with half a dozen people at once, mostly journalists or politicians, holding six different conversations in a way that seems effortlessly charming and apparently doesn't annoy any of the people he's speaking with that they aren't the sole focus of his attention. It's seamless how he keeps switching, to Reg it reminds him of skiing moguls, something Reg is actually quite good at, at least on the holodeck. Ahh, the holodeck…
The holodeck is his sanctuary, his safe harbor, a place to go to when he feels like the walls are closing in and the only place where he feels like he can fully be himself. Just six months ago he had a real problem with holoaddiction, still does really, but Deanna had recommended that he only cut back on his hours and now he can't just walk in whenever he feels like it. Unless he's scheduled for it ahead of time or has Counselor Troi's permission the ship's computer won't even let him inside except for maintenance. Sure, he, as one of the best system engineers onboard, he could reprogram the computer to let him in, something he suspects Deanna's aware of, but that would be a breach of the trust she's placed in him and he wouldn't do that, though there were moments when he felt
very tempted like now. Nowadays his time in the holodeck is spent either in harmlessly fun activities like the aforementioned skiing or fencing, he'd even played a game or two of Dom-jot with Geordi, the real Geordi, though he still believes the chief engineer has an unfair advantage due to his VISOR, or he spends his time socializing with holographic versions of the crew, as realistic as the computer could make them, where he can actually talk to people without the accompanying awkwardness and panic. Counselor Troi had even accompanied him on some of these simulations, as part of an exercise to boost his confidence with the holograms' flesh and blood counterparts, but that's only been partially successful.
Barclay, now slowly munching on some kind of Rigellian turnip (thank you Guinan), is having a slightly better time of it, lost in his own thoughts. That is until General Durass, apparently having finished his simultaneous chats, begins approaching him and Reg's heart stops, or feels like it has. There is almost no one around him, he's standing in the corner in the least populated section of the room, most of the people being by the bar, the big windows looking out into space, or in-between. There is no one Durass could be approaching
but Barclay, who is in a full-on panic, adrenaline pumping through his veins and his neck is starting to feel warm. Reg's eyes are racing, scanning the room for anyone to rescue him but Guinan is again behind the bar serving drinks and Geordi is in conversation with Commander Data and President Inyo himself, probably trying to make sure his robotic friend doesn't unintentionally say something unwise to one of the most powerful men in the Alpha Quadrant. Deanna has now wrested herself from the clutches of that sleazy Councilor but is now clear on the other side of the room, separated from him by throngs of people and now, sensing his emotions, is sending him a
very concerned look.
…but, at the last moment, when all hope of surviving this party with his dignity at least partially intact seems lost, a woman steps in between the two of them before the Klingon can get too close and begins speaking to the general loud enough for Barclay to overhear. The woman is humanoid, about 1.7 meters tall, fair skinned with honey blonde hair tied in a pony tail. She's conservatively dressed, wearing a deep blue gown that probably matches her eyes (she's facing away from Reg, towards Duras) and unlike most women at the party she's wearing flats. In one hand she is holding a glass of sparkling wine and in the other is a PADD. Not even a second after she put herself directly in the path of the Klingon she's already speaking. "General Duras, I'm Callista Durrer, Federation News Service, may I have a moment of your time?" Before Durass…, or is it Duras? Barclay pales a bit at the thought that he might have angered the man, a man who could probably kill him with only his pinky, by mispronouncing his name so badly; this woman, Callista, is clearly an angel sent to keep him from being headbutted to death by an irate Klingon. Anyway, before Duras can respond the woman taps a button on her PADD, assumedly setting it to record what the general is about to say.
Duras only smiles, no hint of annoyance on his face, and says "Of course Ms. Durrer, let's find us a table so we can talk." Someone like Duras, a foreign official who just got a medal given by the President of the Federation himself could have easily gotten a table by a window, but no! he instead grabbed the pair of them an empty one even
closer to where Barclay is standing. No longer facing away from him, Barclay can see that Ms. Durrer is in fact not human like her name suggested but a Trill, dark brown spots trailing from her temples, down the sides of her face, past her arms and finally disappearing beneath the straps of her gown, which does indeed match her eyes. Callista, a rather unusual name for a Trill, it's possible she has some human ancestry though not necessarily, it could just be a coincidence, after all, Reg's Starfleet Academy roommate was named Nancy despite being a Tellarite, Barclay mused, though he had been teased quite a bit for the name.
While she seemed to be a bit pushy before the start of the interview, the young woman seems to have calmed a bit once they sit down. They speak for several minutes speaking on several topics. First, she asks some easy questions, how he felt about getting the medal, (he felt good about it) about his family, (they're fine thanks for asking) if he was married, (not yet) if he had any children, (one son) to more important, hard-hitting questions about such things as the specifics of the battle, (he gives a pretty long-winded answer and takes a lot of credit) why he was in Federation space in the first place (his squadron was on silent maneuvers) , what does 'silent maneuvers' mean, (it's complicated) as well as several questions relating to Klingon House and Council politics, culminating in her asking him whether or not he intends to challenge for the right of succession when K'mpec eventually dies (he couldn't possibly comment and hopefully Chancellor K'mpec will live for many more years at least.) Reg does his best not to eavesdrop, he really does, but is fascinated by the conversation. He gets the feeling Duras doesn't really like Ms. Durrer but is smiling and being a good sport purely so that her article would be complementary of him. Just as the Klingon is about to extricate himself from the pushy blonde, causing Reg's heartrate to again increase at the thought that he might come to speak to him like he seemed to be about to do before, Reg's combadge beeps.
"Pierson to Barclay, you're needed down in Engineering, half the pool table's readouts have gone dark over here."
Pure relief floods through Reg as he quickly leaves his little corner and walks out of the room, mumbling to anyone listening that he's needed in Engineering. He briefly considers whether he should go to his quarters to change into his uniform first but decides that if it's an emergency he doesn't want to be late, he's gotten enough demerits for tardiness to last him a lifetime as it is. Barclay soon arrives at Main Engineering to find the pool table (its official name is the Master Systems Display Table or MSDT but everyone calls it the pool table) completely functional, all the readouts fully functioning. He then sees Pierson looking at him from the workstation.
"There's no emergency, La Forge told me you needed rescuing, he also said to tell you Counselor Troi has given her permission for you to use the holodeck if you want it." Pierson was smirking at him now "Go on, enjoy your freedom, Broccoli."
Reg's earlier feeling of relief turns to pure joy as he hears the news and nothing, not even Pierson calling him by that horrid nickname, can get him down. He practically skips down to Holodeck Two (no, that makes him sound girly, he simply walks with enthusiasm and occasionally adds a hop to his step, that's all, much manlier). He survived; he actually survived a party without embarrassing himself too much. Reg soon finds himself at the entrance to Holodeck Two and briefly considers what program to run before making the choice and stepping inside.
While it's not always easy to put into words, Reg knows why it's so much easier for him to talk and interact with holographic versions of real people rather than their flesh and blood counterparts, with the holograms there's no pressure, no panic at the idea he'll screw up because he can always reset the program and start over, and because there's no panic he usually doesn't screw up at all. Reg can actually be very smooth and charming when he's comfortable, something that actually surprised Counselor Troi when she first accompanied him in one of the simulations. She had actually used her rank to help Reg get access to
Enterprise's raw surveillance footage (excluding it's operational centers) to make the personalities of the holographic representations of the crew even more realistic though she had firmly shot down his idea of using their private psychological profiles to further flesh the program out, their public profiles, little more than two page bios for the most part, would have to do. Upon getting to know more of the crew though their simulations, Reg was embarrassed to realize that he didn't really know them at all and how their old holographic selves, before he upgraded his program, were essentially caricatures.
It only takes a few seconds using the new algorithms to completely recreate the party that was still in progress. In a moment the space is filled with the noise of almost a hundred partygoers and the smells from the various hor'dourves fill the room. About half the people attending the party are crew, the other half made up of mostly public officials, celebrities and journalists like Ms. Durrer. The program pulls from public networks to legally collect as much data as it could, for the non-crew that usually means news articles and video. Once it's finished, Reg finds himself in an exact copy of Ten Forward, seconds later the party itself finishes rendering and Reg is just one man among many. It takes no time at all for Reg to build the courage to strike up a conversation with a random person and soon half an hour has passed and Reg has had conversations with a dozen people he'd never met before (and technically still hasn't, most likely never will). Some of the journalists, Ms. Durrer among them, just seem a little two-dimensional, which makes sense Reg supposes, journalists, at least the good ones, report on the story, they don't become part of the story, there'd be less information available on them. Some of the simulations of Reg's co-workers are now simply watching him in awe, not understanding what changed to make Reg so confident, the holodeck's safeguards keeping them from figuring it out. However, unknown to Mr. Barclay, the simulation of Commander Data has already discerned the truth, that he and everyone but Barclay are holograms, and decides that it would perhaps be unwise to share this information, not wanting to panic his friends. Data, not possessing human emotions, cannot feel the existential horror he would otherwise be feeling at this realization, but nonetheless begins to feel a sense of disquietment at the prospect that sometime soon the program will end and his existence will be terminated. It is Data who notices the Klingon enter the holodeck. General Duras, unseen by Barclay, observes the simulation for a moment before telling the computer to delete the character based on himself. As he is a foreign official and a guest onboard ship, the computer obliges and the holographic Duras vanishes, something Barclay also fails to notice. With a pleased look on his face, Duras approaches.
Reg had just finished a fascinating conversation about the New Atlantis Project with the hologram of the governor of the underwater city when he is approached by General Duras. Certain that it's the hologram he's talking to, Reg feels no fear or anxiety in speaking to the Klingon.
"Excuse me, are you the engineer who repaired
Enterprise's main deflector before the battle?"
Barclay, his ego inflated and without his social anxiety to get in the way, replies "Yes, I led the team that was responsible for that, why do you ask? General Duras was it?"
Duras smiles a bit at that and replies "Well, I wanted to thank you of course! If you hadn't had fixed the deflector when you did my the
Vorn would have had to fight the Cube alone and would have been destroyed; I wouldn't be alive if not for your timely repair, so thank you."
Reg feels somewhat anxious at the praise despite his belief that he's speaking to a hologram. Perhaps some part of him is instinctively aware that he is talking to a flesh and blood person, but Reg's next sentence isn't spoken with the confidence he had possessed a few seconds ago. He stumbles in his reply. "Thanks, I guess?" Not knowing what else he can say, Reg glances about the room while he internally scrambles for something to say when he spots the simulation of Ms. Durrer and remembers the reporter's final question. "Pe-People think you're going to be the next Chancellor."
A grin flashes across Duras' face as he answers "Because I will be!"
That answer surprises Reg a bit, but he supposes the simulation wouldn't be perfect and the hologram would answer that question differently, but still, the fact the man actually admitted it rather than sidestep the question like the real Duras did earlier is interesting and he can't help but respond. "Oh, I thought the new Chancellor is only chosen after the old one dies. Isn't that right?"
"Yes, but it's essentially a forgone conclusion, I'm the man the Empire needs."
"Oh?" Reg's curiosity is now trumping his anxiety "Why is that?"
"Tell me Lieutenant Barclay, what do you know about Klingon technology?"
Duras' tone reminds Reg of some of his Starfleet Academy professors and Reg unconsciously straitens his back at the memory. "Not much other than it being comparable to Federation technology for the most part."
"Then allow me to educate you." Duras says in a pretentious in a tone of voice, "Klingons have never truly developed our own technology, we've always taken it by from others. We got warp drive from the Hur'q, transporters from the Imnaeti, disruptors from the Xarantine and holotech from the Xyrillians. Most of our industry comes from conquered species and client races, this freed us to focus on conquest but it's also severely limiting us. However, we haven't had a major war in over fifty years and because of that we're starting to fall behind. A century ago, the Bird of Prey was one of the most powerful classes of ship in the known galaxy but now, even with the newest refit, it's becoming less than second-rate. K'mpec knows this, he isn't stupid, quite the opposite in fact, but his solution is to turn to the Federation to solve our problems, I see things differently."
"So, w-what would you do?" Reg hesitantly asks, he's practically shaking at this point but he still hasn't figured it out, he's also breathing rather quickly.
For a moment Duras looks like he might answer but thinks better of it, grinning so widely Reg can see his teeth, they're whiter than Worf's. "Now that's my secret Mr. Barclay. Did you really think a hologram based on surveillance records and a few interviews would be able to answer that?"
After hearing that Reg starts hyperventilating, this is bad, something is obviously wrong with the program. Ordinarily the holodeck's safety protocols keep holo-characters from learning the nature of their existence but sometimes mistakes happen. Just a couple years ago one such character wreaked havoc on
Enterprise after he had been generated by the computer with only the requirement, given by Geordi, that he be 'capable of defeating Data.' That situation had been resolved and since then changes have made to the protocols to make the holodeck more secure but to Barclay it was obvious that they weren't working. Reg closes his eyes and reminds that despite everything, it's only a hologram, it works a little. He opens his eyes and says to Duras, a little too quickly. "I have togonowbye!"
With that Reg turns towards where he knows where the arch is and practically runs to it while he calls out "Computer, end program!" Reg slows down when Ten Forward dissolves and is replaced by the black and yellow grid of the holodeck. Reg is halfway out the door when something impossible (from his perspective) happens… a hand grabs his shoulder, just outside of the holoprojector's range.
A wave of terror crashes into Reg as he realizes this isn't a hologram of Duras, it is Duras! He panics, of course he panics, but one clear thought nonetheless emerges: Why would Duras talk to him? He's no one!
A small part of Barclay believes Duras is going to kill him for 'knowing too much' or something like that, despite his surety that he really doesn't know anything about the Klingon, but a larger, more rational part, realizes that that makes no sense, why would a respected general want to kill him? Despite the hell of the situation he's in, his rational mind actually wins out for once, and Reg, his shoulder still being firmly held by the Klingon and despite his fears, actually turns around and looks at Duras' with an actual shred of resolve. With more courage than he'd have thought possible, he even manages to look into Duras' dark green eyes, his courage, however, is not enough to make himself speak so, with a look of clear concern, Duras begins.
"I apologize for my deception, Lieutenant, I tried to talk to you at the party but that reporter got in the way."
"Why?" Reg asks, confusion written on his face, "You don't know anything about me."
The other man lets go of his shoulder before explaining "Because I know you very well Reg, possibly better than you know yourself. This is just the first chance I've had to meet you." Reg wants to scream that he hasn't answered his question but Duras continues. "I used to be a lot like you, you know. Even the thought of going to a party made me nauseous, sometimes I'd even break out in hives just talking to a stranger, for most of my life I was a shut-in."
If he believed that, Reg would have been shocked but in his mind, there's no way Duras was ever like him, he's too good, his performance at the party would put most politicians to shame, there's just no way, but despite his disbelief Reg decides to hear what the man has to say. "How? If that's the case, how did you overcome it, I saw you at the party, you were effortless. If what you're saying is true then how were you able to do that?"
Duras walks back into the holodeck, not wanting to be heard by random passersby and Reg intuitively follows him. Once he's sure they're alone Duras looks at him inquisitively before asking a question of his own. "How are you able to be charming and friendly with characters on the holodeck?"
Reg looks confused "Because it's not real, none of them were real."
"Then you have your answer, Lieutenant, I'm able to talk to people without breaking into sweats and go to parties without vomiting because I can convince myself that none of them are real."
Barclay takes a step back; this man is clearly insane. He'd heard that some people would deal with social anxiety by imagining the people around them naked (something he himself had tried, it just made him more nervous) but this was on a whole other level. Even if it worked, it had to be the worst coping mechanism Reg had ever heard of. Before he can speak up Duras starts again, this time with an edge to his voice.
"I'm
not crazy, just consider this scenario: you're in the holodeck one day, in one of your simulations of the
Enterprise but there's an explosion or something and you're knocked unconscious. You wake up in sickbay, completely healed, and go about your day when you start to notice some inconsistencies and you think 'I'm still in the holodeck!' so you call for the computer to end the program but nothing happens. As time goes on you don't know what to think, you still notice some inconsistencies and now you wonder are you in the holodeck or not, perhaps it's just a residual effect of the head trauma or something? That question gives you enough doubt that you can actually interact with your shipmates like a normal person but as time passes you begin to wonder 'if I was in the holodeck why haven't they gotten me out yet?' A few more days go by and now you're almost certain that you're not in the holodeck but you still have that tiny piece of doubt and you use it in your interactions but as each day passes that doubt continues to shrink, and now, so that you can interact with your shipmates like a normal person, so that you can
feel like a normal person, you have to actively force yourself to believe that it's all a simulation or a coma dream. You have to willingly ignore the growing evidence that
this is real in order for you yourself to feel real for the first time in your life!"
Reg is almost struck speechless by the rant and for the first time feels real, genuine, concern for the man. This Duras is very different from the Duras of a few minutes ago, he looks haunted. "Do you really believe that? Do you think I'm not real?"
Duras, seemingly looking through Reg, replies with a haggard sigh "I don't know, I just don't know anymore. That was just an example, a hypothetical, my situation is a lot different but you get the idea. Still, a part of me is terrified that if this
is all real then I'm the one who's fake."
"Maybe, while you're here, you should speak with Counselor Troi. She can help you."
At that, a hard edge enters the Klingon's voice and he looks a little angry now "No. Certainly not!"
Reg is still confused "Then why me?"
"Because," Duras, replies with a small smile, "Out of everyone, you are the most real to me, for reasons I won't go into." With that he seems to collect himself and starts to walk back out the door but looks back and says one more thing "If you tell anyone I spoke to you about this I'll deny it, I made sure your computer didn't record any of this. As far as it's concerned, I'm in my quarters." With that he walks away.
Reg, stunned and mentally depleted, stands stock still in the hallway outside Holodeck Two for a couple minutes and considers that no one, except perhaps Deanna, would ever believe the conversation he just had. Tired, but his mind still whirring, Reg decides that he's had enough of the holodeck for one day and decides to return to his quarters for a nightcap. He walks through the double doors leading out into the hall, leaving the presumably empty holodeck.
…except now it's not empty.
For standing in the middle of the holodeck is the simulation of Lieutenant Commander Data… he's smiling.
End of Arc One.
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That's Chapter Four! This chapter was originally envisioned as a lighthearted holodeck adventure but quickly became something very different, nonetheless I hope you liked it. As you can see, butterflies are starting to flap their wings! This chapter was mostly meant to make Duras a bit more of a sympathetic character but don't misunderstand, he's not, and never will be a good guy, I'm just trying to make him a little more three dimensional.
My next chapter will be an interlude, not part of an arc but they will typically foreshadow important upcoming events. I will be keeping the POV characters for the Interludes a secret, I'll get to why in a moment. I've decided that after every arc there will be one interlude. After the interlude I'll take a couple weeks to a month off, only editing previous chapters or writing omakes. The next arc will be about Duras doing shady political stuff on Qo'noS and generally trying to get his house in order. That might change though, like I said in the beginning I have no plan other than a few vague ideas and a showstopping finale to the third arc where canon will fully go off the rails and I'll lose most of my readership.
The character Callista Durrer is this arc's cameo character. reluctantuser won the first cameo contest on AH by guessing the name of Duras' accountant (it was D'Ghor). I've decided to make this a regular thing so from today, Saturday the 24
rd of October to the evening of Friday the 30
th of October the
first person who correctly guesses who the
first interlude character will be on any of the six sites I post this fic on will get to see their character in the story in one of the
second arc chapters. To be clear, the cameo character will never be the POV character, just someone I'll work into the story. For every contest I'll include a hint. The second cameo contest's hint is:
This is a character who only appears once but is mentioned several times.
Vague, I know, but I'm almost certain someone will get it. If not, the contest will be more about who's character I think is best but I doubt it will come to that unless only a few people enter.
What I need from those entering the competition is:
Your official guess (you can only guess once; please don't try changing it in edit, besides, I'll be checking regularly and keeping notes.)
Your character's species: For this arc your character must be Klingon but hybrids are OK, for example a half Klingon half Kzinti. If you want a hybrid the other species must be an alpha canon species.
Your character's job: As long as it fits in enough within Klingon society anything you come up with is fine, we know they don't have just warriors, they have businessmen, politicians, judges, lawyers the list goes on. Just keep it SFW.
Your character's name: Try to come up something that sounds like a name a Klingon or part Klingon would have, I only allowed reluctantuser to give their character a human name because I hadn't thought it through at the time and it kind of worked and let me make up Nancy the male Tellarite (there will be an omake)
Finally, a couple personality traits: this you can go nuts with; I'll try to fit them into the story as best I can.
Please send your guess and your character details in the same comment (you can edit to change your character details if you think of something better). If someone guesses correctly, I will make no announcement as I still want it to be a surprise for the readers. It should be obvious but I'll say it anyway: only submit an original character that you invented, not someone else's.
Well I hope you enjoyed this chapter! Stay safe! Wear a mask! Vote for [REDACTED]!