Chapter Nine
Note: I made some grammar, spelling, and flow edits.
Ritsuko Akagi noticed the first hole in the 'Happy Family Scenario' that Ken boy was trying to set up, namely, the fact that
Shinji Ikari, much as he objected to being an Evangelion Pilot, actually found being one a boost to his self-esteem. Not just that, but bringing his mother back would not magically solve his issues with
both parents. If anything, this situation, if not managed properly, would just cause Shinji to spiral downwards.
That made him dangerous, even if he was no longer a pilot.
And now Shiro Tokita was meeting her in the officers' lounge mere hours after he'd been granted an official pass, his opening words were subtle, not giving much away.
"So, it seems Ken's as prone to wishful thinking as the rest of us. Shinji Ikari's happiness will not be easily dictated by other people. Even if they praise him, tell him they like and appreciate him, the fact remains that it'll come off as insincere to the boy. Ken has shown you the videos of the 'Original Timeline' and the 'Rebuild Timeline' of the 'Original Universe', yes?"
Ritsuko silently nodded, acknowledging the objectiveness of his insight, "There wasn't enough time so I just skimmed through it all and followed the Cliff Notes attached to each video… That boy put in extra comments saying that he hid—… He'd hidden what Gendo had done to me."
Bitterness was apparent in her voice, bitterness for the fact that
people knew Gendo had seduced her just like he had her mother, that such a shame could have been weaponized against her but it was overlooked. Sighing to collect herself, she continued. "He also implied that I could be happy with
Ms. Ibuki… That she had a
crush on me… and that all would be better if I returned her feelings. It's… a naïve thought."
Shiro Tokita nodded respectfully, sparing her a moment before he spoke. "Is that what stops you? The fact that Ken does not know how trauma works and is under the delusion that finding a new romantic partner would just magically make everything better? Or is it a… simpler explanation? That you just aren't attracted to the same sex and thus cannot return Ms. Ibuki's feelings?"
"You do realize that we live in a… traditional society, Mr. Tokita?" Ritsuko Akagi automatically defaulted to her bad habits of pushing aside the truth by responding thusly. "Ken might come from a world where he can flirt with girls and other boys whenever he feels like it, but we live in
this universe. Our timeline and society are not his."
She'd found out that Shiro was demonstrating insight
that hadn't been there in the 'Original Timeline' when the JHCI Executive responded, "You didn't answer my questions; If you don't like Ms. Ibuki 'that way', all you need to do is say so."
Ritsuko conceded, looking away with a sigh. "As we now live in a world where everyone is airing out each other's dirty laundry and personal scandals, I will admit that Ms. Ibuki is attractive, for both men and other women. In a kinder, more tolerant world, I'd have given her a chance. But we don't live so freely, do we?"
Shiro Tokita did not bat an eye; he rarely batted an eye except when facing a complete disaster. Just like in the 'Original Timeline'. Instead, he followed up with something she… didn't expect.
"The answer would be simple then. Let's make a kinder, more tolerant world. Ken, rotten
shipper that he is, proved it's actually possible. And let's not forget, NERV is all about saving Humanity, right? So why not make Humanity worthy of salvation 'the hard way'?"
For the first time since this whole mess started, Ritsuko Akagi quietly huffed while failing to hide a smile. "As expected of a man who uses 'HOPE' as a password without any sense of shame or irony. You've grown past that smug, slightly sexist sleazeball who thought he could just 'dethrone' us. Guess your ward really was a positive influence?"
"Despite that arrogance of his… Yes, he might just be…"
She finally saw a smile shift the man's expression as he admitted.
-/-/-/-
Asuka Langley Sohryu had just received the news.
She took it as badly as can be expected.
NERV had betrayed her in the worst possible way and there was nothing she can do about it, not with
her mother being in Evangelion Unit-02 and the Angels still out there, just itching for a fight. But apparently, the Idiot Shinji gets his mother back because letting him pilot would
cause the apocalypse!
'What a fucking joke…' She could've spat on the floor.
It hurt more that it was Kaji who had delivered the news—as well as the irrefutable proof in the form of documents and videos—to her.
Loitering in an observation deck facing Unit-02, she was clad in civilian clothing as she hadn't been permitted near the Evangelion yet. For
obvious reasons.
Nevertheless, not giving a damn about who heard her, she pounded a balled fist on the bulletproof glass, shouting, "Damn it, damn it, damn it! My entire life has been a lie and you all just stand there! I hate NERV! I hate you all! You all took my mother away from me!"
She wished she could actually punch through the glass. At the very least, destroy something of NERV's to get back at the life they destroyed. But it was all for naught, her anger.
There was no hope of getting her mother. Unlike Idiot Shinji, she wasn't so special; especially when her mother's corporeal body, animated by a small portion of her soul, had hanged itself after trying to kill Asuka herself. Now it was buried six feet under, and all the girl could do was commune with Evangelion-Unit 02
when she was judged stable enough to pilot it in combat.
And she would have to be if she ever wanted a chance to feel what a mother's love was like once more.
'At least she did love me! No one can take that away from me! No one!' Her aching wrist punched the glass once more, damning her hand to an afternoon numbed by a cold pack.
'Not even NERV...'
In her frustrations, she failed to notice Matteo Masuda, Project: LUXMAN's adult pilot, observing her from the entrance of the observation deck. He'd been unable to hide the pity in his eyes and, had she noticed, she would have trashed him then and there.
The man at least had some decency to give the girl privacy in airing her frustrations.
-/-/-/-
Misato Katsuragi and Ryoji Kaji were in an underground cargo bay in the Geofront, where Ken, following instructions from
Parallel Shinji and his wife, Mari Illustrious Makanami
(Maria Iscariot , someone who was dead in this universe due to a dubious experiment), was setting up a 'Teleport Beacon' using a modified version of NERV's own tech and the processing power of the MAGI.
The beacon was a small rectangular pillar that glowed with a green version of Angel-Sealing Hex Glyphs. Attached to the floor with some sort of adhesive that was stronger than reinforced concrete, Ken fiddled with it, causing the green glow to grow in intensity. All of a sudden, shipping containers began appearing all over the once-empty area.
So did yet another person, a young man in his mid-twenties. One who shocked both Misato and Kaji with how his face bore a stark resemblance to them, or a fitting mix of both of theirs leaning heavily to Kaji's.
"Parallel Mom, Parallel Dad," said the young man, clad in farmers' overalls and whose hands were stained with soil and bits of grass. "Greetings. The name's is also Ryoji Kaji, and I come with my universe's 'care package'." Casually turning to the other person in the area, he added. "Ken, can you open one of those shipping containers?"
Nodding, Ken approached one of the boxes, pressed his fingerprint on a keypad—His universe can afford those?—causing the metal to open, thus revealing to Misato and Kaji the contents within.
Spears. Kaji Jr. then followed up with an explanation of the armaments they were looking at.
"These are replicas of the Spears of Longinus, Gaius… And, yes, Marius."
That last name was clearly the source of some unpleasantness judging by his tone. It had been explained by one of the videos they'd watched—the one of the final battles of the 'Rebuild Timeline'—something best not brought up for lack of a better time.
"Each replica can create and pierce AT-Fields and even turn the latter into laser beams. In essence, these are techno-organic laser weaponry that can also create energy shields. With these, NERV has additional options against Angels and, when—not
if—necessary, human enemies." the younger man's expression shifted slightly as he continued. Looking at Misato and Kaji in the eyes for a few seconds, he then said, "Ken showed you the videos of the JSSDF's assault on NERV in the original timeline, the one this universe most resembles, right? If so, make sure they get a beating for me."
He paused for a moment, seemingly satisfied with the nods they retuned as he then smiled. "Anyway, time for me to go. Be safe, Mom and Dad. You have the truth early. Make sure to use it well and not get shot… Nor allow things to end up in a situation where have you to sacrifice yourselves to save everyone…"
He looked to want to give them a hug but vanished in a brief flash of light, his time already up. Left with dumbfounded expression, neither Misato nor Kaji Sr. misunderstood the young one's sincerity.
-/-/-/-
As for the boy they were all worried about—Shinji Ikari…
He had run out of NERV HQ, neither bothering to talk to his father or the mother he had missed for the longest time. He didn't even pay heed to the intruder claiming to be his son from a happier world.
The worst-case scenario had happened: the young lad was already in a downwards spiral and he was not going to give everyone else a chance to lift him up, not when they thought they could dictate his life just like a script.
The boy hadn't even bothered to resign from NERV, whose Section Two was now undergoing a set of purges of SEELE spies and thus too preoccupied to wrangle him back like they had last time. Not just that, but even if Section Two was at full strength and capability, something—or someone—was keeping them from finding Shinji, concealing his presence from any pursuers.
Sat on the shore of a lake glittering from moonlight somewhere in the Hakone countryside, Shinji sobbed.
After all the trouble they went into to get him in the robot in the first place, they were now throwing him away and telling him to be happy. That everything he had wanted was now his without him asking for it. That his father was now willing to act like a real father because his mother was back and his plans had changed.
But… no one had ever consulted him about what he wanted. Not one…
No one had the time to ask what he thought… or cared to… Always jerked around, always pushed wherever they wanted him…
Why would they talk to him? Who would even ask him? No one, that's who!
And what would they even ask him…? No… What would they even want to ask him… What would make him happy?
He couldn't even answer that himself.
Many things had changed… but it was the same sad thing for him.
He wanted to lash out. He wanted to vent. He wanted to be seen as more than he was… but… how could he—
The sound of footsteps had Shinji turning around in fury, only to pause as he saw a beauty unlike any other. Starlight and the moon's glow reflecting on pale skin and silver hair. Stood before him was a boy wearing the uniform of his own school, but… he couldn't recall ever seeing such a person before.
He would've noticed… especially if they were this
beautiful.
Shinji had never thought of other boys like this. For boys to see their fellows in such a way… that was shameful, improper. But now, emotionally vulnerable as he was, all he could do was admire a picture of art that just so happened to be male like him.
As the silver-haired teen stepped towards him, Shinji Ikari was stunned to silence, as though he was looking at a perfectly illuminated sculpture, an otherworldly beauty, approach him.
And as the beautiful boy spoke, his tone radiating warmth and kindness, Shinji listened.
"You must be Shinji Ikari. Nice to meet you. I am new to this part of the world, you see?" the words were musical, impossibly melodic. "You know, the fact that this lake is so pristine shows that Humanity knows how to respect nature as much as it can pollute it, and appreciate the beauty and wonder of the world it usually exploits for its own survival and comfort."
Poetic as well as deep, Shinji found himself awestruck. But when he spoke, he let slip a hint of suspicion in his voice. "What are you doing here?"
"To see
you, of course. Not the image others have of you, not what others think you are and what others think you want. I want to hear it from you, said in your voice." He paused, staring into Shinji's eyes—nay, his soul. An ephemeral beauty requesting an answer. "What do you think will make you
happy, Shinji Ikari?"
Shinji knew he shouldn't drop his guard; if anything, he should keep it up against a stranger who
knew just the question going through his mind. But then again, why should he? No one else truly cared about him, so why not grasp for straws and hope that this person, this… stranger who seemed to understand, might actually do so?
Compared to everyone else, this one looked to at least be… honest with his intentions of using Shinji.
Nevertheless, the boy held himself back and asked. "Who are you? Who are you working for? What do you want from me?"
The other boy smiled, and the smile was as brilliant as the starry sky above him.
"My name is Kaworu Nagisa, and I am, for the time being, a servant of SEELE, NERV's enemies. And as for what I want
from you? That might not be the same as I was asked to do."
"What… what are you talking about?"
'Kaworu Nagisa' paused but then continued his approach, slowly stepping closer into Shinji's comfort zone, slowly closing the gap with his melodic voice gently easing Shinji's doubts and fears.
"You see, it's not that I want something
from you, Shinji." He paused, standing intimately close before the boy whose heart was beating a mile a minute. "It's
you I want. I was sent to bring you to them."