I get that. When ever I write on one of my stories or quests, I'm always telling myself this is the last one. This is the last test before you write your actual book, then call up your cousins and a couple other family members/friends to use their connections to get it published. Finally become a professional writer like you've always wanted. lol.
The feeling of me and Jackal did something unique and it is loved. We are doing wild shit we never did as fully in ASOIAF