Questionable Questing

That's kind of the point for my story. It's deliberately a self destructive and stupid system that all kind of ties in with the fractured relationship with their mom. Although I do agree with some of the other Magical girl shows.

How is this idealism romantic notions destructive and dumb?

Getting in shower talk after

Because it venerates innocence and purity even as it's forcing literal children to fight in life or death battles by themselves. It also has a predetermined time limit that also tends to destroy people's lives because as it turns out if your super busy all the time as a magical girl, which by the way you can't tell anyone thanks to a magically enforced gesis.

It's hard to build stable relationships, focus on college, the start of your career, or a lot of other things. Which is basically what happened to Ragyo, the big bad and mom to Satsuki and Ryuko. She was the best magical girl, sacrificed everything in her life to be the best, yet she could stop the march of time to the inevitable end of her powers even as she tried desperately to work around it.

Experimenting on her body and her former friends/family with darker and darker magic. Even her relationship with her kids was colored by the idea they would grow up to be magical girls which she could live vicariously through, or else they aren't her family anymore. Constantly pushing them to go stronger and be better.

Did she start out truly heroic and grow bitter?

She was genuinely heroic for awhile, but she did have a bit of an ego and a kind of perfectionist streak where she felt she had to be the very best no matter the cost to her mind or body.

So wanted to save people but with the source of her greatness coming from heroic flaws. To do all that and no reward after must be devastating

That's what really set her off the deep end. It's not like she even got to talk to someone about her lost powers or even got some kind of award or recognition of what she did, just the knowledge that some day she would forget the one job she loved and spent most of her life obsessing over.

She loved it? Why. at first and how did that love evolve

She loved the fighting, the almost chess-like nature of it where both opponents senses and reflexes are so fast they can both concisely choose each move as it's happening. She loved winning. She loved outsmarting them. She loves the praise and hero worship. How millions of people dressed up like her and talked about how great she was.

But mostly she loved the never ending grind. The constant improvement. The constant push to move faster, hit harder, and learn new magic. That there is no limit or boss telling you how to do things. That she could freely explore her own wondrous little world, without anyone holding her back or any judgement. it's that freedom she loved the most.

Wonderous little world is a good summary. So she in general was kind but it was never her ultimate drive

Exactly, she wasn't a magical girl to primarily save people, it was because she enjoyed learning, fighting, and exploring the powers that came with it. Doesn't mean she was a psycho that would needlessly abandon or hurt people, she definitely was a hero for a long time, but it was never the reason why she fought.

I sleep. Night.

Sleep well

corrupted magical girl pictures and make them grown women or milfs

How was day? And corrupt magical girls you say? I have the perfect caption series for that. This one is super cute, despite the kinky side to it.

But also Sailor moon is a classic for a reason, especially when all the best girls are invited.
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