Restarting From Level 1... As A Tiny Blonde Swordsman!?
Zenith - Throne of the Godking
The problem with reaching the top is that there's nothing left to climb. No mountains. No struggle. No weight pressing down, forcing me to push back. I thought that was godhood. I thought that was divinity. I thought that was the ultimate truth.
But now, I wonder – what does that even mean?
I have everything. I see everything. I know everything. And yet, I feel nothing. No hunger. No fear. No drive. No reason to move forward except for the simple fact that I exist. Is that godhood? Is that what it means to be divine? To sit upon a throne built of victory and wither? Because this is not power. This is not greatness. This is not supremacy. This is stagnation. This is emptiness. This is the slow, creeping realization that I have already won.
Or did I truly?
And if I have already won, then what is left? What is left when there are no more battles? What is left when there is no more struggle? What is left when even time itself bends to my will?
Nothing. Nothing but stillness. Nothing but silence. Nothing but the hollow weight of a throne I no longer want to sit on. Because power means nothing without struggle. Because knowledge means nothing without discovery. Because eternity means nothing without purpose.
Nothing but void. So I made my own distractions.
Crunch.
Cheese dust clung to my fingers. Salt burned the cracks of my lips. The aftertaste was sharp, artificial – human. I wiped my hands against my sweats, leaving streaks of orange behind.
Click.
My mortal fingers – soft, clumsy – pressed the controller. The Dragonborn stood victorious, the final boss reduced to dust. Another game finished. Another story consumed. I stared at the screen. No reaction. No rush of triumph. No sense of completion. Just the dull, creeping awareness that I was still bored.
A long breath. A slow exhale. My other hand reached for the can beside me. The soda hissed as I cracked it open. The scent of chemicals and syrup filled my lungs. Cold carbonation burned against my tongue. Everything was sharper in a mortal body. Every taste. Every ache. Every fleeting moment of something. I had never speedrun a game before. Never felt the pull of optimization. Never chased the high of a perfect run. I had played, sure, but always as a distraction. Never as a challenge. Never as a test.
I tapped my fingers against the desk.
The second monitor played DanMachi. Gods watching from above. Mortals fighting below. Strength built through struggle, not predestination. A world with rules. A world with stakes. A world with a finish line. I sat forward. My fingers tightened around the controller. A voice cut through the air. Smooth as cut stone, heavy as deep space.
"You have done it again, my Lord."
I smirked. "What, took a break? Lived a little?"
Sebastian did not answer immediately. He never did.
"You lower yourself again."
I wiped the cheese dust off my fingers, licking the last of the salt from my lips. "I choose to lower myself."
"Choice is an illusion for those who believe in limits."
I smirked, leaning back in my chair. "Limits make the game interesting."
"Limits make the game a cage."
I tapped my fingers against the can. Fsst. The last of the carbonation fizzled against my tongue.
"And yet mortals thrive in cages. They struggle, they claw, they reach for something beyond themselves. They break their own chains."
Sebastian remained silent.
I gestured to the screen, where Bell Cranel fought, bled, grew.
"Tell me, what's more impressive? A man born into power, or a man who earns it?"
"Power is power. Whether inherited or earned, the strong remain strong."
I laughed. "And yet you serve me, a God King who strips himself down to nothing just to see what happens."
"Because you are you. In the vastness of the Multiverse you help me give meaning."
I leaned forward. "But what if I don't?"
The room was silent. Sebastian, ever-composed, ever-unshaken, hesitated. A fraction of a second, but I caught it.
I grinned. "There it is."
"Recklessness is not the same as wisdom."
"And wisdom is not the same as experience." I gestured to the screen, where Bell lay broken, where Ais stood above him, stronger, faster, beyond him. "You believe power is absolute. I believe power is achieved."
"You believe in struggle."
"I believe in earning my place."
"How are they?"
Sebastian stood, hands clasped behind his back, expression unreadable. "You wished to see?"
I leaned forward, rubbing my temple as the flood of memories settled. "And now I have."
Gine's defiance. Abiel's hunger. Their struggles. Their triumphs. Their lives – full, painful, fleeting, real.
I exhaled sharply. "Why does it feel unfair?"
Sebastian tilted his head slightly. "Define 'unfair.'"
I scowled. "You know exactly what I mean."
"Indulge me."
I pressed my fingers to my temple, the weight of experience – not mine, but theirs – still lingering.
"They struggle. They earn. They fight against fate, against gods, against the limits of their own existence. And me?" My voice darkened. "I sit here, infinite, untouched, unchallenged. I have everything, and yet they – they – have lived more in a handful of years than I have in eternity."
Sebastian remained still. "So you envy them."
"Envy?" I scoffed. "No. Yes. Maybe. I don't know."
"You know."
Silence stretched between us.
I clenched my jaw. "Why do they get everything?"
Sebastian blinked. "They do not have 'everything.' They have 'struggle.' You have 'everything.' And now, you resent it."
I clicked my tongue. "No. I resent what it means. I resent that they get to break their chains, that they get to claw their way up, that they get to feel that rush of victory." I exhaled. "I was born at the peak. What is there left to climb?"
Sebastian's expression did not change. "And yet, you always look downward. Never forward. Never beyond."
"Because forward is more of the same. More eternity. More nothing. More – " I gestured, grasping for the right word. "
Stagnation."
Sebastian's gaze sharpened. "Then why not make something new?"
I let out a dry laugh. "You think I haven't tried? I've built empires, I've forged realms, I've bent reality in ways even the greatest of gods couldn't comprehend. And yet, none of it – "none of it" – felt real." I gritted my teeth. "Because I always knew. Always knew I'd win. Always knew the outcome. Always knew that no matter what happened, I was above it all."
Sebastian did not flinch. "So the problem is not 'having everything.' The problem is 'never having to earn it.'"
I exhaled, dragging a hand down my face. "Yes.
Sebastian studied me for a long moment. "Then… perhaps the solution is simple."
I frowned. "Oh? Enlighten me."
"Start from nothing."
I blinked.
Sebastian's voice was smooth, even. "Strip yourself of advantage. Of knowledge. Of power. Cast yourself into the struggle you admire so much. Become the thing you envy."
I stared at him.
Sebastian stood at his usual place – hands clasped, expression unreadable, a monument of unwavering patience.
I swallowed. "A speedrun?"
"A test." His voice carried no hesitation, no uncertainty. "A
true challenge."
I scoffed, waving a hand. "A speedrun is an optimized challenge. Not just difficulty for difficulty's sake. It's about efficiency. Precision. Stripping away the unnecessary and cutting straight to the goal." I gestured toward the screen. "I've seen mortals do it. They don't play the game. They break it."
Sebastian's lips barely twitched. "And yet, you've never attempted one yourself."
I rolled my eyes. "Why would I? I know the game. I know the mechanics. I know the optimal path. Where's the fun in running a race when you've already memorized the finish line?"
Sebastian tilted his head. "Then erase the finish line."
I frowned. "What?"
"Erase the knowledge. Erase the advantages. Cast yourself into the unknown, without your godhood, without your foresight. Start from nothing. And for once, earn your victory."
I stared at him. "You're talking about a blind speedrun."
"I am talking about a real experience."
The chip in my hand crumbled between my fingers. I barely noticed.
Sebastian's voice was steady, unwavering. "You sit upon your throne of eternity and speak of struggle as if it is some distant spectacle. You admire those beneath you, envy their trials, yet refuse to step down and face them yourself. This is your answer. This is your path. Start from nothing. No memory. No meta-knowledge. No safety nets. No escape. No
divine power."
I clenched my jaw. "No guarantees."
"No guarantees."
I exhaled slowly, letting the weight of it sink in. I had conquered realms. Bent the laws of existence to my will. What challenge was left when the only thing greater than me… was me? This. I tapped my fingers against the desk. Once. Twice. A steady rhythm against the wood. A habit. A thinking habit. A habit that meant I was considering something.
"So where?"
Sebastian, ever composed, ever certain, gestured toward the screen. "It is before you."
I followed his hand. The flickering menu. The title screen. The loading buffer of a random anime episode playing in the background. Danmachi.
I narrowed my eyes. "That?"
"That."
I leaned back. Arms crossed. Mind working.
"You expect me to
throw myself into a world of those so-called gods and mortals?"
Sebastian did not blink. "You expect me to believe you are not already considering it?"
I exhaled sharply. "That's not the point."
There were better choices. Stronger choices. Elder Scrolls. Elden Ring. Xianxias. Real worlds. Worlds built for conquest, for power, for ascension. A world of levels. A world of restrictions. A world where gods played at war, and mortals played at being gods.
"It's rigid." I shook my head. "It's structured. It has a cap. A limit. I have no interest in a world where my ceiling is predetermined."
Sebastian remained unshaken. "Then break the ceiling."
I paused. I studied him. His posture. His certainty. His unwavering belief that this was the path.
"You expect me to achieve godhood in a world where divinity is locked behind celestial shits? Where power is dictated by blessings and the whims of existing gods?"
Sebastian clasped his hands behind his back. "Figure it out."
I clicked my tongue. "That's not an answer."
"It is the only answer that matters."
I let out a short laugh. "So you're throwing me into a random point in the timeline, in a random body, with no advantages, no meta-knowledge, and expect me to not just survive, but ascend?"
"You are the one who requested a challenge."
I drummed my fingers against the desk. Faster now. More restless.
"It's still low in power scaling."
"Then change the scale."
"And it's full of gods that can crush me the moment I step out of line."
"Then do not step out of line."
"And the system is rigid. It follows rules. It obeys mechanics."
"Then find the cracks."
I frowned.
Sebastian remained still. Poised. Confident.
He wasn't wrong. I did ask for a challenge. I did ask for something new. I did grow bored of worlds that handed me power on a silver platter.
But this?
"You think it's interesting?"
Sebastian finally smiled. "I think the better question is – do you find it?"
"Fine."
Sebastian inclined his head, ever so slightly. "Then it is decided."
"Use my full soul."
Silence.
Sebastian did not move. Did not blink. Did not even breathe. He simply stared, expression unreadable, posture rigid.
"No."
"Yes."
"
No."
"
Yes."
His fingers twitched. A rare reaction. A rare sign of frustration.
"You are being reckless."
"I am being thorough."
"You are being foolish."
"I am being interested."
Sebastian's gaze sharpened. "You would gamble your
entire divine existence for a mere game?"
"A game is only interesting when you have something to lose."
His lips pressed into a thin line. "You underestimate the risks."
"And you underestimate the thrill."
Sebastian let out a slow breath. "Your logic is flawed. This is not some fleeting mortal indulgence. This is your soul. Your full self. Your
entire being. If you fail – "
"Then I fail completely."
Sebastian's voice lowered. "And if you die – "
"Then I die completely."
A pause. A silence thick enough to cut.
Sebastian's fingers curled behind his back, his stance stiff, controlled. "That is not acceptable."
"That is not your choice to make."
"As your steward, it is precisely my choice to make."
"As the one who commands you, it is mine."
Sebastian's eyes narrowed. "You would willingly enter a world with no advantages, no knowledge, no safeguards?"
"That is what makes it a challenge."
"That is what makes it suicidal."
"Then so be it."
"You cannot be serious."
"Oh, I am." I smiled. "What is a speedrun without stakes? What is a challenge without consequences? If I fail, I fail completely. That makes every decision matter. That makes every action weighty. That makes this – " I gestured to the screen. "
Real."
Sebastian's voice was cold, clipped. "This is not the logic of a ruler."
"No." I leaned forward, grinning. "It is the logic of a player."
Another silence.
Sebastian exhaled through his nose, controlled, contained. "If you insist on doing this, at the very least, use only a fraction of your soul. You need not wager everything."
"That would make it dull."
"That would make it sane."
"And since when have I ever been interested in sanity?"
Sebastian's hands clenched behind his back. "You play too much with the concept of risk. Even a gambler knows when to fold."
"Ah, but I am not a gambler, am I? I am something else entirely. I am not playing to win. I am playing to earn the win."
Sebastian's expression did not change, but the weight of his presence pressed heavier against the air. "If you lose yourself in this world, there will be no coming back."
"Then I suppose I'll have to make sure I don't lose."
Sebastian studied me for a long moment. Then, with a slow motion, he raised his hand. Energy crackled, reality twisted, the air vibrated with unseen power.
"Then so be it."
Sebas inclined his head, the ever-present glint of amusement lurking beneath his composed expression.
"Good luck in your adventure, my lord."
I scoffed, arms crossing as I leaned back. "Don't act like I won't succeed. I always do."
"Of course. You always do."
My eyes narrowed. "That sounded sarcastic."
"Perish the thought."
A sharp exhale. Annoyance flaring. I waved a hand dismissively. "Tch. Whatever. Just send me already."
Divine energy crackled at his fingertips, reality itself bending under his will. But just as the spell took hold, he hesitated, watching me with that same unreadable expression.
"Oh, and do try to enjoy yourself this time, my lord. After all – what's the point of a game if you don't?"
Light swallowed everything. The world shattered. And I fell.
I felt restricted.
In eons, this is the first time I have ever felt it – this weight, this suffocating stillness. My body, so limited. So weak. So fragile. My mind, so slow. So dull. So unbearably mortal. Every thought is like wading through thickened tar, every sensation wrapped in layers of numbness. I reach, but I cannot grasp. I push, but I cannot move.
I am bound. I cannot move. I cannot struggle. I cannot breathe.
I feel the cold first, pressing against my skin like an old, forgotten lover. It seeps into me, into this new and foreign flesh, burrowing into bones that feel too small, too fragile, too human. It is not the cold of space, not the comforting emptiness of the void, but something else – something damp, something heavy. It carries the scent of stone and stagnant air, of dust that has settled for centuries, undisturbed by life. A dungeon. A prison. A crypt.
I try to move again. Nothing. I try to speak. Nothing. I reach for my power. Nothing.
I reach for my name – my
true name.
Nothing.
I have been sealed. Banished. Exiled. My strength, my divinity, my will – ripped from me, shackled, buried in the abyss. What remains is weak. What remains is small. What remains is nothing more than this fragile shell, this dying ember of a once-blazing star.
So this is what it means to be mortal, huh?
Interesting.
I turn inward. I search. I dig through the remnants of what I was, what I am, what I must be. There is something there, something left to grasp. My memories. My memories are still mine. Sebastian. He must have allowed this. Of course, he did. He always spoils me. Even when he disapproves. Even when he warns me. Even when he tells me that this is foolish, that this is dangerous, that I am playing with something I do not fully understand. But he still left me something. He still left me this. So I search. And I search. And I
search. Time does not move. Or perhaps I do not move within it. There is only the cold, the frigid, the stillness. But my mind – my mind still works. It still functions. But I cannot change. I am stagnant. I am trapped. I am mortal. I think, therefore I am.
I racked through my memories. Sifting. Sorting. Searching. I dug through the remnants of my mind, picking through the scraps of what was left to me. Not much. Not enough. I cursed – if I could. I clicked my tongue – if I could. But my body remained still, locked, frozen in this endless moment.
Tick. Tick. Tick.
No sound, but I imagined it anyway. A clock with no hands. A second that never ended. A prison with no walls, no doors, no air, no breath. Stasis. I kept counting. One. Two. Three.
Nothing changed. Nothing shifted.
Four. Five. Six.
No movement. No decay. No escape.
I narrowed my thoughts, compressed them, focused on the one thing I could still control. My mind. I reached for my power.
Aura Manipulation. The words rose from the fog, floating to the surface of my consciousness. A field of energy. A reflection of the self. A force shaped by will. I clicked my tongue – or I would have, if I could. Useless. Incomplete. Weak.
Not paralyzed. Not restrained. Frozen. Not in ice. Not in stone. In
time.
And yet, I was aware. Aware of the silence. Aware of the weightless void pressing in from every side. Aware of the absence of sensation, the absence of warmth, the absence of time itself. Thoughts came slowly. Sluggish. Like they had to fight their way through mud. Thick, heavy, suffocating. But they came. And if I could think, then I was not completely frozen. If I was not completely frozen, then there had to be a way out.
Panic was useless. Struggle was meaningless. I had to understand. I reached, not with my hands, not with my body, but with something deeper. Something innate. Something fundamental. Aura.
A pulse. Faint. Weak. Sluggish. But there. Aura was me. My essence. My presence. The invisible weight of my existence pressing against reality. It was the one thing in this frozen moment that still flowed, still shifted, still responded.
So I pushed it outward.
And it vanished.
Aura manipulation worked by sensing, by mirroring, by adapting. But the moment it touched the stasis, it was devoured. No reaction. No resistance. Like throwing a stone into a bottomless abyss.
I tried again. Same result.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Each attempt yielded nothing. Each push was swallowed whole. No feedback. No seams. No weak points. No flaws. I was trapped in a prison without walls, without locks, without openings. But a prison was still a structure. And a structure had rules. If this was magic, then it was not perfect. No magic was. No spell could hold forever without sustaining itself. So I stopped pushing. I started listening. Aura extended. Not to break the spell. Not to resist it. But to understand it. And then, I realized. Time was not stopped.
It was
looping. Not a wall, but a wheel. Not a cage, but a circuit. An infinite loop of reinforcement, resetting every fraction of a second before change could occur. But a system like that? It had to move. And movement, no matter how small, meant flaws.
I focused. I matched my aura to the spell's frequency, riding the loop instead of resisting it. There. A hesitation. A ripple so tiny it could barely be called real. I adjusted. Shifted. Slipped into the rhythm. The spell did not recognize me as foreign anymore. I was part of it. And then, I disrupted it. A single shift out of sync. The loop skipped. Another. The circuit stuttered. A third. And the entire system collapsed.
CRACK.
Time snapped back into place.
Sound rushed in. Deafening. Chaotic. The distant drip, drip of water. The groan of shifting stone. The echo of something ancient stirring in the dark. Air slammed into my lungs. Cold and damp and heavy with the scent of earth and rot. I gasped, a ragged, choking breath, my body convulsing as sensation returned all at once.
Pain. Sharp. Immediate. Real.
My chest burned. My limbs ached. My head throbbed, as if my skull had been cracked open and filled with fire.
I was free.
My fingers twitched - instinct, memory, something buried deep, something old. Light surged. Not blinding. Not weak. A glow, steady and firm, forming from nothing, from nowhere, yet it had always been there. A presence waiting to be called. I reached. It answered. Weight slammed into my palm—solid, dense, real. Warm against the dungeon's lifeless chill. A presence, not just an object. A thing that remembered.
A tome. Not leather. Not parchment. Something greater. Something forged, bound not by hands, but by will. Its cover, black as abyss, pulsed with silver veins, shifting like living circuits, like liquid metal frozen mid-flow. Symbols coiled across its surface - unreadable, yet I understood.
It knew me. It had always known me. My fingers traced the edge—smooth, cold, ancient. It felt neither dead nor alive, something in between, something that waited.
I exhaled.
FLIP. Pages turned - no wind, no hand, just will. Not paper. Not ink. Each page was a tapestry of shifting knowledge, a living thing, words that formed and reformed, diagrams that pulsed like heartbeats.
Temporal Control
Type: Major Ability (Active/Passive)
Range: Self / Up to 10 ft (Expands with Mastery)
Duration: Variable (Aura-Dependent)
Cooldown: None (Excessive use destabilizes aura)
Effect:
Manipulate time's flow within a controlled radius. Accelerate, decelerate, or halt movement—but no rewinding or altering the past.
Mechanics:
By syncing aura with natural time fluctuations, the wielder can amplify or disrupt motion. Precision, energy, and experience determine effectiveness.
Abilities:
• Time Shift: Speeds up or slows a target's actions.
• Momentary Freeze: Halts movement in a small area, draining aura heavily.
• Temporal Surge (Locked): ???
System Notes:
A high-precision aura ability suited for control and reaction-based combat. Overuse causes perception lag, aura fatigue, or temporal desynchronization.
Pages turned. Ink shifted. The grimoire unveiled another inscription, this one deeper, more intrinsic, more me. My main power.
Aura Adaptation
Type: Core Ability (Passive/Active)
Range: Self
Duration: Permanent
Cooldown: None (Gradual Mastery)
Effect:
The ability to integrate, assimilate, and refine external energies into personal use. Any aura, magic, or supernatural force encountered can be analyzed, deconstructed, and reconstructed into a compatible form. Growth is cumulative—each successful adaptation expands potential.
Mechanics:
• External Energy Integration: Identifies and breaks down foreign auras, extracting core principles.
• Reconstruction: Rebuilds extracted properties into personal aura, modified for compatibility.
• Refinement: Repeated exposure sharpens efficiency, reducing energy loss in adaptation.
• Cross-Application: Allows fusion of multiple learned energies, creating hybrid effects.
Abilities:
• Mimicry: Temporarily replicates external aura techniques with reduced efficiency.
• Permanent Assimilation (Cooldown): ???
• Singularity Construct (Locked): ???
System Notes:
A walking paradox—every battle, every encounter, is a step forward. A skill with no peak, no ceiling—only evolution.
Nice.
The first thing I noticed was the weight - or the lack of it. I was too light. Too frail. My limbs lacked the strength I had always taken for granted, the quiet, effortless power that once hummed beneath my skin. Now? Gone. Stolen. Replaced with something smaller, something weaker. My balance was off. My movements, unfamiliar. I shifted my weight from one foot to the other, and the difference was wrong in a way that sent a sharp prickle of unease through my spine.
I breathe. The air was thick. Stale. Damp. It carried the scent of old stone, of rot seeping through the cracks of a world that had long forgotten the touch of the sun. Dust. Mold. Something deeper, something older. It clung to my throat, scratching, itching, like the remnants of a dead thing too stubborn to fade.
I listened.
Drip. Drip. Drip.
Water. Slow, steady, distant. A heartbeat in the silence, counting time in drops. But beyond that? Nothing. No wind, no whispers of movement, no rustle of unseen things lurking just out of sight. I swallowed. My mouth was dry. Tasted wrong. Metallic, almost. Like the aftermath of biting my own tongue, but without the pain. I took another step. My foot brushed against something—loose gravel shifting beneath my weight, crunching, grinding. The sound echoed, swallowed by the oppressive stillness around me. Where was I? A cavern? A ruin?
A dungeon.
The word slid into place, clicking against fragmented memories.
A dungeon. I turned. Something caught my eye. A glint. A shimmer. A reflection. A crystal jutted from the ground, fractured yet smooth, its surface catching the dim, eerie glow that bled from the stone around me. And within it—
A girl.
I stilled.
She did the same.
Golden eyes stared back at me, wide with something raw. Blonde hair, short and messy, fell over a face that wasn't mine. The frame was small. Petite. Delicate. Seven? Eight years old? A child.
No.
I reached out, fingers trembling.
The girl mirrored me, her own small hands pressing against the surface of the crystal. I felt nothing but cold stone.
No. No, no,
no.
This wasn't right.
This wasn't supposed to happen.
I was supposed to be the Main Character. The protagonist. The chosen one. The Dovahkiin, standing atop the Throat of the World, Thu'um shaking the heavens. The Supreme Overlord, commanding legions from my throne of obsidian. The Overpowered Reincarnator, a walking force of nature. The Irregular, defying the laws of whatever world I stepped into. The Lone Survivor, carving my legend into history.
Not this. Not a child.
Not a girl.
A laugh clawed its way up my throat. It came out choked, hollow. Disbelieving. I touched my face again. Smaller. Softer. Not mine.
Sebastian, you dog.
What have you done?
Note: Even though MC managed to break free from the time stasis, she wasn't released at the exact moment she wanted. The spell that sealed Ais had been in place for nearly a thousand years, and even after breaking through, MC was still late. She emerged only a year before the Loki Familia would find her, meaning that despite her efforts, she's still bound to a similar timeline as canon Ais.