Amy Dallon, Herald of Andraste

[Balorak146]

Well, that could have gone...actually, that really is about the best it realistically could have gone.

And stop poking Amy's buttons, Shaper. She does that too much on her own as it is.

 

[Kylia Quilor]

Well, that could have gone...actually, that really is about the best it realistically could have gone.

And stop poking Amy's buttons, Shaper. She does that too much on her own as it is.

Click to shrink...

Shaper gambled everything on Amy and is not going to give up until the Gacha pull gives it what it wants.

 

[bob1?]

wow, she really missed the point in lord of the rings…
you know I honestly can't wait for Cole to start his little "therapy" sessions with he, I'm sure it will go pleasantly for everyone involved.

can he sense shaper?

 

[Kylia Quilor]

Author's Note: Behold! After another Breakdown, Amy almost gets it! Just barely in reach. You know what they say about hitting rock bottom before going upwards.

Many thanks extended to all my readers and those who have commented, and to everyone who has contributed to the TV Tropes page.

Amy Dallon, Herald of Andraste

By Kylia

Chapter 12​

Once more, Amy was back in Josephine's office. Her desk was even more piled with papers and letters than last time she'd been there - the woman had been busy while Amy was in the Hinterlands, but she had said she'd been working hard on corresponding with nobles and stuff to get support for the Inquisition. That was a lot of paper though.

"How have you not gotten cramps from writing all those letters?"

"Long years of arduous practice, mostly," Josephine said with a soft laugh, sitting down at her desk. Food was supposed to be brought in soon, and Josphine started gathering some of the papers and letters together, putting them into drawers and organizing the piles. "I have been in charge of managing my family's finances for some years now, and before then, I maintained regular correspondence with friends and contacts all over Thedas."

"Sounds exhausting," Amy sighed. "Keeping up with letters with so many people."

"I find it quite invigorating overall, honestly. It is a wonderful way to stay abreast of matters happening all over the world, and I enjoy learning as much as I can. It is the mark of a true Antivan aristocrat to be able to have a skilled and informed conversation on nearly any topic one might imagine." Josephine's words didn't remotely make Amy feel like it was any less exhausting. "And as the heir to the Montilyet family, I have an obligation to manage the finances for the success of our House."

Amy blinked. 'Heir'. Not 'head' of the house. If Amy remembered what Josephine had said a while back right, both of her parents were still alive, but Josephine was managing the family money, not them? She wondered how that worked, but she didn't press on it. Maybe they just decided she was better with numbers or whatever.

"It is somewhat more tiresome trying to secure support for the Inquisition, though reports of your healing abilities are beginning to spread, and I suspect that will rebound to our benefit as well."

"I'm not healing rich nobles just to get their support," Amy said quickly. "I don't do requests. I heal people who need it, but it's based on who I can get to, and who needs it the most." She shook her head. She'd been offered money more than once for healing, to jump the line, to heal people who really didn't need her services just so they could save time on recovery after surgery, or not have to wait on transplant lists even though they had a long time before it was actually essential they got a transplant or whatever else. And one son of a bitch who had been eating and drinking his way into an early grave who wanted Amy to undo all that so he could keep going - no dieting, no cutting back on the booze or the cigars.

She turned them all down.

Heroes didn't take money to let rich bastards cheat the system. Or get out of the consequences of being gross, fat drunks.

"I do recall you mentioning you don't do healing 'on request', yes. Don't worry, I haven't pledged your services to anyone, though I'm sure requests will start to come in." Josephine assured her. "If I may ask, why do you not do requests? It would be of great use to the Inquisition, and from what I understand, your healing isn't a limited resource."

"Well, I have to actually be there, so I'm not schlepping all the way to some random castle just to heal some duke that thinks they matter more than anyone else," Amy explained. She sighed, "Mostly it's just - if I start doing one request, I get more. If I just refuse them all here, like I do back home, then they'll stop asking. Eventually. Mostly."

She still got requests sometimes, from people on the street or whatever who recognized her, but everyone at Arcadia knew better than to try and ask Amy for healing now, finally.

Josephine shook her head, chuckling, "I am afraid that perhaps you have never met an Orlesian noble if you think saying no to them would be enough to dissuade them from something they truly want."

"And that Orlesian Noble hasn't met me," Amy muttered. "No means no, when it comes to my healing. Someone tries to force me, I can always just give them cancer." She actually managed a smile. "That's actually part of the official plan my Aunt and Carol drew up, for if someone tried to kidnap me to make me heal someone."

"But it never happened?"

"No, thank god," Amy confirmed. "I guess people were either too afraid of my sister beating them to a pulp, or Carol cutting an arm off or anything else my family can do." She let out a breath. "People know my family's dangerous. They know Glory Girl - my sister - will personally take on anyone who tries to hurt me." She smiled a little, more genuinely and easily this time, then her smile faded as she felt the ache of missing Vicky throb in her chest again. She was always missing her sister, but if she tried not to think about it, it hurt a little less. She blinked her eyes, hating that she felt like she might start to cry again.

Damnit damnit damnit. Vicky wouldn't cry this much for missing me. Her sister could be strong. She could too. She had to be. Amy bit the inside of her cheek.

"Please, do not cry - I do not mean to keep reminding you of your family." Josephine opened one of the drawers.

"I'm missing my sister all the time. It's - You didn't make it happen." Amy said quickly.

"Still. Perhaps this can cheer you up at least a little." She took out a small metal box with a locked latch, and handed Amy a key. Amy took the box, and the key, shaking the box a little. She heard something moving against the metal, a lot of something's. Small and -

Is it it -

Amy set the box down on a clear patch of Josephine's desk and unlocked it, opening it to reveal that the box was packed full of coffee beans.

"I - Josephine, you are my favorite person in Thedas." Amy said after a moment, taking the time to smell the beans. She'd never actually done that much back home - it was usually just coffee grounds and coffee and boom, drink, but at this point she -

She had her own supply of coffee that she could take on the road now. This was a lot of beans actually, and she could probably be really careful and parcel it out.

Not that she wanted to just have a small amount, but that way she'd always have coffee.

"And I arranged for a coffee grinder of your own," Josephine handed Amy a small grinder, looking maybe less fancy than the one Josephine had used, but still, she could grind her own coffee.

"Thank you, oh my god, thank you so much," Amy let out a long sigh, feeling something almost resembling contentment for a long moment. "When we go to Val Royeaux, I can actually have coffee on the trip." She tried to think back to those distant camping trips, before her trigger, before Vicky's trigger. Back when life had been... back when Amy had been something resembling carefree, and she could just... be Amy Dallon. She hadn't been a coffee drinker back then, but she had seen one or more of the adults making coffee over the campfire.

"When you actually get to Val Royeaux, I suggest getting coffee at one of the cafes," Josephine suggested. "They're not quite as good as the cafes back in Antiva, but," she inclined her head a little, "they are still better than making it yourself here in Haven, or on the road."

"Assuming anyone will sell to the false prophet," Amy muttered.

"In my experience, the only thing cafe owners in Val Royeaux care about is how your money spends," Josephine assured her.

"Saved by greed," Amy chuckled humorlessly.

"Self-interest is often one of the best ways to motivate someone." Josephine pointed out. "Mutual self-interest is after all the foundation of all good political and business relationships."

"Because god forbid doing the right thing be what people do." Amy grumbled.

"Unfortunately, most people are not so selfless," Josephine sighed. "The world would be a simpler place if more people were such, but one must live with the world we have, not the one we would prefer." She poured herself some water from a metal pitcher and offered some to Amy. Amy nodded and Josephine handed her a cup and filled it.

"Don't I know it." Amy muttered. She was about to say something else when the door opened and someone brought in food. It was more stew, which seemed to be a staple up here. But at least this one didn't have cabbage, and from the smell, she thought that was pork, rather than mutton. Also bread - dark bread, like what they usually had here. Amy had occasionally gotten something lighter, but the rye was the most common.

Something something white bread used to only be for the rich people? That sparked some sort of memory from Amy, maybe from some movie or late night documentary she only half-paid attention to.

Josephine accepted the food with thanks and once the person who brought the food was gone, she eyed it with a small frown.

"It is a low priority, but I do hope we can import more options for food than what is available here." She said after a moment. "One makes do with what they must face, but... I am not overly fond of stew."

"At least it isn't mutton?" Amy felt weird being the one to point out the bright side, but... it was a bright side.

"That is true." Josephine let out a breath. "I knew what I was getting into when I agreed to come here, though I do admit I didn't expect to stay in Haven for long. If it was practical, I would strongly advise we relocate elsewhere, but staying close to the Breach like this is likely the best option." She sighed, "Still, why anyone would feel the need to live here before Andraste's Ashes were found, I will never understand."

Josephine was rich, so yeah, she was probably used to much fancier places than here. Better beds too.

Your home still doesn't have electricity and shit. I'm slumming it a lot more than you. Amy that back, rather than say it, because Josephine had just given her coffee and... she was probably the nicest person Amy had actually met so far in Thedas.

Besides, Haven was pretty shitty.

"I don't know what I don't like more. The cold, or the middle of nowhere or the limited food options. They all suck," Amy agreed.

"It is unfortunate, but keeping busy helps distract the mind from it." Josephine noted. "From the cold, the rustic amenities, the food, the wildlife, the complete lack of civilization for miles around..." she sighed, then started to eat. She had a few spoonfuls of her stew, Amy doing the same, before Josphine spoke up again. "Though given what you have said of your home, the adjustment for you is much more severe."

"Yeah, but we already know that. And no amount of bitching is going to make television a thing here."

"Television?"

Amy took a bite of the bread, grimacing at the taste and thought about how to answer. "TV is a way to like... watch a play without having to be at the theater. Any time, even if it's really far away. Or the play was done years ago."

"And this is not magic?"

"No. It's- I don't know how it works. I just know you turn it on and watch stuff. Mark - my adoptive father - and I would do it a lot when we couldn't sleep. It takes less energy than reading. Just... sit there and sort of mindlessly watch whatever was on that was halfway interesting." Amy explained.

Josephine shook her head in wonderment, "Being able to see a play any time, anywhere would be quite pleasant, especially here." She ate another spoonful of her stew. "I gather you read for pleasure, as a pastime?"

"I used to. I... I sort of fell out of the habit, and..." Amy sighed. "It's hard to focus on it sometimes. It's hard to enjoy it." And then the only book I have that's fiction right now is the book Katerina gave me and suggested I read and I don't want to give her the satisfaction of reading it. It was stupid, but it kept stopping Amy when she considered trying to get back to the Tale of the Champion. "Healing took up most of my day and energy, back home."

"I can understand not having the time to pursue your enjoyments," Josephine sighed. "Since taking over the majority of my family's finances, in addition to both my prior position as Antivan Ambassador to Orlais, and this one, I have found my time to simply... relax quite limited. Still, you are young, and there is little healing you can do here, at least, most of the time. You should take the time to rest, when you can. There is no need for you to work yourself to the point of exhaustion. I have many duties, and less relaxation than I'd like, but I do take what chances I can."

"I'm fine. I don't need to be coddled like I'm made of glass," Amy muttered. "Did Cassandra put you up to saying that? I'm fine. I don't need to - I'm fine, okay?!" Amy raised her voice at the end of that, and Josephine seemed pretty impassive in response to Amy yelling.

"Cassandra put me up to nothing. Why would you believe she had?"

"Because she gave me grief for not telling her that healing tires me out if I do a lot of it in quick succession, back at the Crossroads, and basically told me to rest more and stuff." Amy sighed. "She was like 'you should have said something and only healed a few people'. Like I can just... tell someone that 'oh, you're not sick enough for me to heal today, I'll get to you tomorrow."

"That does happen when there is a shortage of mages, alchemists or doctors to see to everyone that might be sick. Surely you understand the need to prioritize the sickest or most injured?"

"Yeah, but I can heal almost anything in just a few minutes, at most," Amy explained to Josephine. "And it's not like... I don't 'run out' of healing ability the way a mage can run out of magical reserves or whatever they're called. It's just... exhausting. I feel all... wrung out, afterwards. But I can't just... not heal people when they need my help right there, right where I can get to them."

"I have to do it, when I can. I'm Panacea, the miracle healer." She couldn't hide the sour note in her tone as she said it. "It's what I do. I heal people." And if she stopped, then -

Well, then she was everything Carol obviously always believed Amy was.

And I am, but I have to try to not be. Not that it would ever matter, or ever be enough. But - what else was there?

"That's supposed to be my life. I should be back home, healing people. There's people dying back home because I couldn't get to them. Cancer or heart failure or genetic disorders or - victims of cape attacks or a million and one other things. And the worst part is... I fucking sleep easier here, then back home, because - there's just nothing I can do about it." Amy blinked repeatedly, trying to hold back wetness in her eyes.

"Back home, I just... lie awake, at night, all the people I'm not healing running through my head. Brockton Bay is huge compared to... Haven," she gestured around herself, even though they were inside. "Hundreds of thousands of people. When I couldn't sleep, I went out to the hospital at night, and did more healing." Amy barked an empty, hollow laugh. "But I can't do that here! There's got to be sick people all over the place, but even if it was safe to, I can't just walk there and heal them. It would take days to get anywhere, and instead I need to go to Val Royeaux and do politics. And yet, despite all that, it's easier to sleep here because I just... I can't do anything about it! And I hate that. I hate it so fucking much."

Josephine said nothing for a long moment, then finally she pushed her bowl to the side and laced her fingers together in front of her, hands resting on the desk. "I understand how the circumstances might make it easier to sleep, knowing that even if you didn't sleep there's little you could do, but I... I must admit, I am at a loss to understand why you would hate being able to sleep better."

"Because people who I could help are still dying!" Amy insisted, "What does it say about me that I can just... accept that and sleep easier? What kind of person can just... ignore all that? I'm not back home, and people are dying because I'm not there to heal them, back home! That should be keeping me up at night, and it does but - but not enough apparently?" She was on her feet now. When had she stood up? "What does it say about me that I can sleep easier here, even knowing that being here is leading to people dying! Or even just suffering needlessly when I could fix whatever was wrong with them in a matter of minutes?!" Tears were in Amy's eye now, and she felt sick that she was saying all this, but - she couldn't stop.

She'd been in Thedas for nearly three weeks? Or maybe more? It was hard to tell. Everything started to run together - she didn't even know the local calendar. What month was it? What year?

Whatever it was, in that whole time, she'd missed her sister nonstop, nearly died at least twice - three times, counting that fireball Katerina tackled her over - had to deal with her hand feeling like it was being stabbed every time she closed a rift, got accused of mass murder, became an icon of fucking religious veneration and -

She wanted to go home, she wanted her old bed, and - and TV and electricity and the books she never read and she wanted Dean to be all patronizing and shit and Carol to be disapproving and Mark to mean well but not be able to do anything and she wanted everything to be normal and it wasn't!

And she had to deal with Katerina and her bullshit and it actually seemed like Cassandra cared but it was clearly as much pity and wanting to keep their precious Breach-closer functional and Josephine was nice but how much was that just her being a diplomat and Amy hated how fucking insane everything was and -

She felt frayed, and raw and exposed, like a nerve. She felt like that a lot, but this was so much worse, and now she was ranting and she couldn't stop herself. And couldn't stop herself crying either.

"It's already bad enough that I hate healing. It's bad enough that I wish I didn't have this stupid fucking power, it's bad enough that I - It's bad enough that I used my power like I did on that abomination! I helped kill him! And I used my power to - used my power to hurt him? What kind of monster would use the power I have to hurt people? What kind of person has the ability to save so many lives like I do, and hates it? I save a kid's life and their parents tearfully thanking me just makes me upset and - and now I'm resting easier even though I know people are dying and suffering here and back home and there's nothing I can do about it but that shouldn't be enough to let me sleep well and I broke my rules when I used my power to hurt the abomination!" she was repeating herself, words spilling out of her as an uncontrolled flood. It was every melt down she'd already had here but all at once.

Amy slumped back down into her chair, sagging, sliding down it a bit, wishing she could just melt into the floor. Of all the times to not be able to use my power on myself...

"There's a reason I insisted I wasn't a hero like my family. I'm not." Amy's voice was quiet, small, a whisper, weak. She shouldn't say more, couldn't stop, just...

May as well get it all out there.

"Heroes don't hate saving people. I'm not a good person like they are. Good people - good people don't have the power to save so many lives, like I do, and wish something would happen to take it away. Good people - good people aren't me." Good people didn't - good people didn't love their sister in the gross, disgusting way Amy did. Good people didn't look at their sister kissing her boyfriend and wish she could be in the boyfriend's place.

Somehow she managed to avoid saying that part out loud, but it was true.

Josephine said nothing for a long moment, looking at her. Staring, probably. Judging her. Pitying her, maybe. Realizing just how fucking pathetic Amy was, probably.

"I told you I am in charge of managing the finances and businesses of my family." Josephine finally said. Even as she spoke, she handed Amy a fresh handkerchief, or at least tried to. Amy didn't actually reach out for it, and Josephine set it down on the desk as she kept going on this complete non sequitur. "It is a task made more difficult by the fact that though the Montilyets were once a great trading house with vast fleets, our resources have become quite diminished in recent decades. It is something of an embarrassment, and the task of salvaging our position falls to me. It is... a heavy obligation. In such a situation, every expense we can reduce, and every profit we can increase, is essential to preserving our status and position."

If Amy had had the mental capacity, she might have commented on that, something about god forbid her family be a little less rich, but as it was, Amy could barely muster the energy to think that, let alone say it. She blinked, trying to stem the tears still slipping down her face, though at least she wasn't sobbing for the moment, anymore.

"It is a task, a duty that has taken up much of my focus over the last few years, and will no doubt continue to. Six months ago, I discovered that we were accidentally overcharging a merchant we were doing business with, and had been for some time. I hadn't noticed sooner, no one else working on my family's end of it had, but just as much, neither had the merchant. They had paid what was charged, and seemed not to notice we were asking for 15% more than what we should have. Added up over time, it was quite a sum of money, especially given the Montilyet's financial state." She sighed.

"Most in that situation - assuming they had even a modicum of mercantile ethics - would simply lower the price in the future. The mistake was made, but no reason to lose the money, especially given how dearly we needed it to stave off creditors and see to other expenses. Others might repay the overcharged sum, and leave it at that." Josephine shook her head and let out a small sigh. "But that would not be right - I repaid the merchant as soon as I discovered the issue, at no small cost to our limited reserves of coin on hand, but it is not enough to simply repay the sum - the merchant is a prosperous one, but they too suffered limitations and shortages for our mistake, as they had less coin to hand to see to their own other expenses. I spent weeks arranging favors to repay them properly for our error."

Fuck this is like Katerina trying to 'relate' to me by talking about her fucking cowardice. Amy managed to put the thought together about what Josephine might be doing. The other woman wouldn't just start talking about this for no reason unless she was building up to something. Calling attention to the fact that repaying them was hard, that they 'needed' the money. That she went above and beyond...

It was just like what Katerina tried to do.

But this wasn't the same thing? Katerina was a coward who had seen people doing bad things and did almost nothing. Josephine had discovered she'd done something wrong and fixed and done more.

Not the same thing. Not - fine she did the right thing but that's still nothing - it's just money and it's all rich merchants and cash flow and all that shit.

Amy's breath hitched as she tried to stop herself from crying - she had to look even more awful than usual now, splotchy and - and

"The merchant was more than satisfied with my efforts, quite thankful actually, and invited me to his home to discuss our business relationship going forward. Only when I got there, the merchant was nowhere to be seen." Josephine paused and took a sip of her water. "In his place was Leliana."

Amy blinked. The story she'd been expecting, some sort of... something about how Amy was totally actually a good person just because she healed or whatever, and now - what? The unexpected twist in Josephine's story threw Amy for such a loop that as she blinked at her eyes again, there were no fresh tears. The knot of dread and self-loathing and anxiety was still tight in her chest, her gut, that yawning chasm inside her always threatening to swallow her up still there, but...

Confusion was overlaying everything. What did Leliana have to do with anything?

"We had known each other, been close friends in fact, many years before, when she was a bard at the Imperial Court and I was at University in Val Royeaux, but we'd gone our separate ways some time before meeting again. She was there to offer me a position assisting the Divine in negotiating a peace between the Mages and Templars, and then assisting the Inquisition she would create to ensure that peace was implemented across Thedas, and held."

Amy reached for the handkerchief and wiped at her face - she wasn't crying anymore, somehow, but she could feel the dampness on her cheeks and everywhere else on her face from all the tears.

"The entire affair with the merchant was a test, arranged by Leliana. She believed I was the best fit for the task she had in mind with my temperament and experience, and she trusted me, from our past friendship, but she had to be absolutely sure that I was the right person for the job. That the Ambassador for the Inquisition would have to be someone of 'painful integrity' in her words." Josephine sighed. "I must admit I was a bit annoyed by her indirect approach, but I do understand her desire to be sure."

Leliana is a spy, so stupid roundabout secret tests of character seem like the thing a spy would do. She'd run into characters doing shit like that. But Josephine had done the right thing and more, so she'd passed. But what was the point of Josephine doing this? Or how was it going to tie back to her, since that was the reason Josephine was bringing it up, right?

Josephine set her cup down, "My point is, Amy, that if healing is something you do not like doing, if doing it taxes you as you say it does, then the fact you insist on doing it regardless is the more moral deed."

"A good person would want to help people!" Amy snapped, raising her voice again, angry. Josephine meant well, but she didn't get it.

"And you do," Josephine said simply, unfazed by Amy yelling at her.

"I just said I don't!"

"No. You said you don't enjoy the task of it, and that you wish you didn't have your power, or the obligation you feel comes with it. But no one has forced you to use your power, to volunteer to tax yourself as you have using it. You chose to do it. You wanted to do it." Her tone was simple, and matter of fact, as if she was stating just reality. Amy stared at her, trying to - what was Josephine doing?

"I do it because - because it's the only thing I can do! Because I - I never wanted this power. I never wanted any power. But I have it, and I have to use it and I have to help people."

"Because, at the end of the day, you are a good person, Amy. Wanting to do a thing does not mean you'll enjoy it. Believe me, I do not enjoy all of the tasks a diplomat must perform. But I want to do them, because I want to succeed at my work, and the benefits of doing so are worth it." The way Josephine was talking reminded Amy of Carol, weirdly, the way she laid everything out all matter of factly, building on what was obviously a whole constructed argument. She'd heard Carol practicing some of her court cases, or heard Carol arguing with Aunt Sarah about things, and her adoptive mother would often lay things out, say things... just as facts and with a delivery that Josephine's was reminiscent of...

"But I - that's not - you don't get it!" Amy protested, the words feeling pathetic. How - how could she explain it all? Her biological father, her - her disgusting feelings for her sister. She couldn't -

It was all part of it. It was her. She wasn't a good person. She never had been. Never could be. Her power was monstrous, and every time she had some thought, some errant idea on how she could use it to make terrible things, or do something awful, that was further proof.

"Don't I? Leliana's choice of words - painful integrity - are not the ones I would choose to describe my actions... they are... far too self-aggrandizing, in a false humility sort of way. But there is some truth to them. It was painful, to arrange for those favors, to free up the money to pay the merchant back all at once. But it was the right thing to do, and I would not have been able to live with myself. I wanted to be the kind of person who would do the right thing. That has always been true. And it is true for you. You want to be a good person. You want to be the sort of person who would do the right thing. And you see healing others as right. Which it is. And so you do it."

Josephine wasn't saying it in a supportive, 'I'm here for you', pitying way Cassandra had. She wasn't saying it, like Vicky did, in a voice of love and affection that made Amy feel worse because of the disgusting taint Amy left on everything to do with her sisterly bond with her.

Josephine said it as if it was unquestionable. Water was wet. The sun was hot. Gravity pulled things down. Amy Dallon is a good person.

It's not that simple. It's - It's not... Amy knew it wasn't true. But Josephine didn't know why. And Amy - Amy couldn't tell her. She was alone in this insane, stupid, horrible fucking world, and Josephine was nice to her and Amy -

Amy didn't want to tell her all the reasons the older woman was wrong. All the reasons Amy knew she wasn't a good person. All the reasons she needed her rules.

"It's not that simple," Amy murmured, the protest feeling weak and pathetic, because she couldn't explain it. How could she even start?

"Few things are that simple... and yet, they often are," Josephine pointed out. "Closing the Breach should be simple, and it is. Get the mages or templars to help you close it, the Breach is closed, Thedas is saved. And yet, it isn't. And yet it is." Josephine folded her hands in front of her, resting them on the desk. "You are young, Amy. Given time, I hope you'll understand, but..." she smiled softly, chuckling, "It is not that simple to understand... even though it is."

"I -" Amy started, then she felt her shoulders sag. What could she say? What could she possibly say that would even come close to making Josephine get it? The other woman just... seemed to believe it. She barely knows me! She just knew Amy could heal, would heal -

That I'm putting my life on the line to close the rifts and the Breach. Cassandra had pointed that out too, but - what else could she do?

There was no real point in continuing the conversation. Not right now. She wasn't going to get anywhere, and she needed - she needed time to figure out how to explain it to Josephine. In a way that wouldn't - that wouldn't make Josephine hate her. At least not yet.

It was bad enough being in Thedas. She didn't want to make one of the few people she almost liked talking to hate her. She was alone enough as it was.

"Thank you. For the coffee. And the grinder." Amy finally said, taking both and slipping the metal box and the coffee grinder into her pocket. "I - I should go. I - I don't think I'm going to be up to do more planning about Val Royeaux right now." She'd almost forgotten that this was a break for lunch. Her meal was only half-eaten, still there on the desk, but she wasn't hungry and

"You are quite welcome." Josephine said softly. "I do hope that even if you won't need to make use of my own coffee beans, we might still sit together and talk, over cups, from time to time while you are here, in the future? I am still very curious about your world, and I would like to help you understand Thedas better, for as long as you are here."

After a moment, Amy nodded, "Yeah... that... sure." She swallowed. "In the future. I just - I need to sit down and rest and - I'll - later," Amy didn't really know what to say, so she just... sort of said a few things and turned away, walking out of Josephine's office and out of the Chantry, still stewing on... everything. On what she'd done to the abomination most of all. How to explain it? How can I make her-

As she pushed open the doors, she was greeted by a whole mass of people standing in front of the doors, but for a change, they weren't all staring, as if waiting for her.

There were a bunch of people in armor - Amy recognized the Templar symbol on some of them, and tensed, but they didn't have weapons drawn and -

Cullen is a former Templar, Katerina is - must be other former Templars here too. They were standing on one side. On the other were people in mage robes, like the ones she'd seen on the rebel mages attacking the Crossroads. The loyal mages who'd joined with the Inquisition. Just a handful of them, though there were some other people standing on the other side. Including Katerina.

And arrayed around the whole group were a crowd of onlookers, watching as the mages and templars were arguing.

"...how dare you say that, when it was your kind that killed the Divine!" A templar shouted, to a chorus of agreement from the people behind him and some of the crowd.

"Lies!" The mage shouted back. "Besides, it was Templars like you who failed to keep her safe. Abandoned her and the Chantry!"

"I never abandoned the service of the Chantry and the Maker!" The Templar snarled. "Had your kind not rebelled, none of this would have happened."
"Right, and so they were supposed to just stand there and take it and die, forever, were they, Ser Gilbert?" Katerina said, arms crossed in front of her. In a voice dripping with scorn, Katerina went on. "Is that what a Templar would do? Or would a Templar break their oaths to the Divine the moment they were given an order they didn't like by her?"

"You speak of Oaths when you never even made one, Initiate," Ser Gilbert countered, stepping closer. Katerina did the same, and they were now a few inches apart. "You would have made a poor Templar, siding with mages over-"

"I'll stand with mages over anyone who still wears the Templar sigil." Katerina spat on the ground in front of him. Gross. "I'll side with-"

"Enough!" Amy heard a voice from behind her - Cullen - and he walked past her, moving between Katerina and Gilbert, shoving them both away from each other.

"Knight-Captain!" Gilbert said, sounding like he was about to protest, or something, but Cullen cut him off.

"That is not my title anymore. I am not a Templar, and neither are you. The Order broke with the Chantry, but we did not. These mages also chose not to rebel, because they are as loyal as you are."

Katerina seemed to be about to say something, but then Cullen turned to her. "And you know better than to do this. Antagonizing your brothers in arms is pointless, and dangerous. I'd have thought you learned your lesson after the fifth time you were assigned punishment detail to fill latrine trenches."
Filling latrine trenches? Five times? Amy assumed 'filling latrine trenches' was like, piling dirt on a big ditch that had been a latrine - something resembling a good hygiene practice - and it was just by the name alone, a shitty job. But Katerina had been punished with it five times for 'antagonizing' ex-Templars?

"We are all part of the Inquisition, and you should all act as such!"

Nice sentiment. At least Cullen, even if he had tried to justify the Templars rebelling with 'they felt ill-used', was part of the 'We've got bigger problems' program now. Better than not.

Low bar, but how many people in Thedas had failed to clear that one?

"And what does that mean, exactly?" A familiar voice that Amy hadn't heard since he'd been trying to order guards to put her in chains said, the watching crowd parting to allow Chancellor Roderick, hands clasped behind his back as he approached, a sneer on his face.

Think of the asshole, and he shall appear.

"Back already, Chancellor?" Cullen let out a small scoff. "Haven't you done enough?"

He poisoned the Chantry against us, so yeah, he has. But obviously he didn't agree he had. Because of course not.

"I'm curious, Commander," Roderick began, "How your Inquisition, and your 'Herald' will restore order as you've promised." He gestured to Amy, standing closer to the door, behind Cullen. "Do you have any thoughts on that, Herald?"

"Do I need to just write 'I'm not a Fucking Herald of Anyone' on a piece of paper and tape it to my forehead?" Amy crossed her arms in front of her, glaring at Roderick. Everyone's eyes turned towards her and Cullen, and Amy dropped her arms to her sides and pulled her hood over her face.

"Of course you are," Cullen muttered in response to Roderick's comment.

"You have no answer! Your Inquisition offers false hope on the basis of a false prophet! You're seeking to usurp the Chantry's rightful place in Thedas!" Roderick countered. "I ask again, how do you propose to restore order?"

"Closing the fucking Breach, for a start," Amy muttered. She regretted it immediately - why wasn't she just going back inside, or trying to get away from the crowd or -

"Closing the Breach you say? That would be quite the achievement, and yet, you haven't done it yet! The Inquisition claims you can, and yet-" Amy had to respect the level of sarcasm the Chancellor was bringing to bear, as much as she hated to admit it.

"If you have a better solution for the Breach, I invite you to offer one, Chancellor. In the meantime, back to your duties, all of you," he raised his voice, gesturing to the mages and ex-Templars. "There is nothing to see here."

The ex-Templars hesitated for a moment, then Gilbert let out a wordless, annoyed sound and turned on his heel, stalking away. The mages did the same, and a few others in the crowd did as well, though not everyone went.

"The only way Thedas can be restored to order is if it is done by the Proper Authority," Roderick said firmly, and Amy could hear the capital letters as he said it. "Surely you cannot believe that your upstart organization can bring peace where the Chantry could not?"

"The Chantry was bringing peace, until someone went and murdered the Divine, Chancellor," Katerina pointed out, because of course she hadn't gone 'back to her duties'.

I am her duty, so I guess that tracks.

"And you have not only allowed the chief suspect to roam free, but have claimed she speaks for the Maker!"

"The Inquisition has only claimed that Amy can close the rifts, and the Breach, which she can. What people believe about her is their affair," Cullen said firmly.

"And I'm not a fucking Herald of anyone!" Amy protested. Before Roderick could say anything, Amy kept going. "But right now, I'm going back to my - my cabin, and you can do your little one-man show for an audience that doesn't include me." Amy brushed past Roderick, keeping her hand from touching his - it would have been so easy - to avoid the temptation to give him diarrhea or something unpleasant and nonfatal.

A good person wouldn't even be tempted...

But that bastard made it so hard to not feel the temptation...

Roderick tried to protest, say something, but Amy didn't listen - the remaining onlookers parted for Amy to get past them, and she heard Katerina following behind her.

"The Chancellor is an idiot blowhard, but he's a good idea of what you'll see if you go to Val Royeaux," The redhead said, catching up to walk beside her.

Stupid tall person with their stupid long legs.

"Did Cassandra already tell you we're going?" It would make sense. "And you don't need to talk to me to be my bodyguard." She did not want to be dealing with this... coward. This woman who had put herself ahead of the people she was supposed to protect, put ambitions and dreams ahead of doing the right thing.

"...I was right there when Mother Giselle suggested it." Katerina pointed out. Oh, right. "And no, I don't, and honestly, part of me would love to not talk to judgemental bitch like you, but do you realize how boring standing guard is?

"I'm not here for your entertainment," Amy muttered.

"No, that's just a nice extra benefit," Katerina said with a grin. Then she sighed, "Look, Amy, I meant what I said - you are a judgemental bitch."

"I judge people who deserve it. You do."

"Judging me isn't the problem. I'm judging myself every fucking day of my life. Calling me a coward when you don't even understand the first thing about what I was experiencing is!" Katerina raised her voice, then flushed, looking around to see a few passersby looking at them both. Katerina grabbed Amy's hand and half-dragged her - ignoring Amy's protest and even if Amy was willing to she couldn't do anything to her since Katerina was wearing gloves - the rest of the way to Amy's cabin, opening the door and going in with her, before letting her hand go.

"If you're trying to make me forgive you, you're not helping by dragging me like that!" Amy snapped, crossing her arms in front of her. She could - she could fuse Katerina's tongue to her mouth - not for long, just - just for a few hours.

That would be okay, right?

Well, no, it wouldn't but -

"Why would I want or need your forgiveness, Amy?" Katerina countered, crossing her own arms in front of her, glaring down at her. Amy just glared back at her, head tilted up. "The people that I didn't step in to help - they're the ones who have the right to decide if I deserve forgiveness. You've made it pretty damn clear you don't speak for the Maker, or Andraste, so why, Amy, would I care about your forgiveness?"

Amy tried to ignore the embarrassed flush to her cheeks as she realized the merit of what Katerina was saying. And that she had made the same mistake she had when Katerina had told her about her crimes - of negligence, of inaction: that Katerina wanted Andraste's or the Maker's forgiveness through her.

I guess you hear me say 'I don't speak for the Maker' enough times and it sticks?

"Fine. Point taken." Amy admitted, hating every word of it. "What do you want, then?"

"I want some kind of truce or something," Katerina answered, letting out a small sigh. "I think you're a bitch, you think I'm some kind of moral coward, forever stained by my mistake. Fine. Whatever." She shrugged, "But I'm stuck with you, and you're stuck with me. So - truce? We don't have to like each other, but can we at least pretend to get along?" She held out a hand, asking Amy to shake it wordlessly.

Amy glared at the hand, and debated the offer.

She was stuck with Katerina, that much was true. Maybe she could complain to Cassandra, but Cassandra might not care. The older woman's primary concerns in assigning Katerina as bodyguard were probably trustworthiness for the job and skill Katerina was observably good with her massive sword, and at least in terms of standing between Amy and anyone trying to hurt her, or keeping people back, Katerina seemed to be worthy of Katerina's trust.

She certainly seemed willing to die to stop the abomination.

And as far as other possible bodyguards went, Amy was sure she could do worse. So much worse. Ser Gilbert, for instance. Or some other soldier, one who saw Amy as sent by the Maker and wouldn't believe her or care when she insisted otherwise.

A bodyguard that considered Amy to be a 'judgemental bitch' was better than one that called her 'Herald' and and looked at her with awe or reverence.

Besides, 'judgemental bitch' wasn't inaccurate anyway.

Arms still crossed, Amy weighed her options, given the reality of being stuck with Katerina. Would it be so bad to have a civil conversation? Amy was capable of not being a bitch to people she didn't like, she just didn't usually care enough to try. But with someone she really was stuck with... it would probably be better to have some sort of truce.

And while Katerina was a pathetic moral coward, it wasn't like she'd actually hurt any mages directly. That didn't give her a pass, not even close, but it was different then a truce with someone like that 'Ser Jethan'.

"What exactly do you mean by 'truce'?" Even as she said it, Amy's shoulders sagged, suddenly feeling exhaustion set in. The encounter with Roderick being an asshole had momentarily staved it off, substituting annoyance for the drained, wrung out feeling she'd had after leaving Josephine's office. Katerina dragging her here and opening with an insult - even an accurate one - had only fed that annoyance.

But Amy couldn't stave it off for long. Trying to explain to Josephine why she wasn't a good person - and failing - had taken a lot out of her and...

Honestly, arguing with Katerina about anything right now just seemed, somewhat suddenly, to be too damn much work. Amy sat down on the bed, looking at the floor rather than Katerina, her hands in her lap, exhaling slowly.

"Trying to have mostly civil conversations, and... maybe - maybe - talking more about stories? We both like reading - or at least, you used to like it. Thedosian stories, and ones from your home." Katerina put on an almost charming, rueful grin and rubbed the back of her head. "I'm pretty curious about that Lord of the Rings story you mentioned, and those Roaraxia stories you just talked a little about sound really interesting too."

Right. This is just because she doesn't want to be bored.

Amy had enjoyed talking about Roaraxia though...

"Yeah, sure... that - maybe we can do that. Truce." Amy shook Katerina's hand this time when she offered it again. She could handle being mostly civil to her face, and she could decide if she wanted to talk to her about stories later. Right now, she wanted to lie down and sleep and think about Vicky.

"Glad to hear it." Katerina's smile was smaller, but less rueful, more... genuine. "But I'll let you rest right now. You sound tired." Katerina stepped out of the cabin, closing the door behind her.

Amy got off the bed long enough to strip off her robes, and then her armor and flopped facedown onto the bed, before rolling onto her side.

Josephine was wrong. She was wrong.

She had to be.

She had to be.

---

The next day, after a surprisingly restful and nightmare free sleep, Amy stumbled out of bed after someone brought in breakfast, which turned out to be some kind of savory oatmeal-like thing, flavored with garlic and onions.

They really like both of those here. But Amy guessed that a lot of the seasonings she knew - like sugar, fuck, she missed sugar - were just not a thing in Thedas, or at least, not in some tiny town in the mountains of Ferelden.

But, tired of garlic and onions or not, food was good, and she'd woken up hungry, having skipped dinner in her rush to lay down and just... block out the world after her lunch with Josephine.

She finished the food, and washed up with a bucket of cold water. She would have made coffee using the fireplace in her cabin, but she had no kettle, so she couldn't put her new grinder and supply of coffee beans to any use, yet.

She also washed her hair, just with water. They didn't really have shampoo or conditioner or even close here. Asking Josephine before leaving for Haven had revealed that washing your hair 'with' something wasn't actually that common. Even washing hair wasn't common - done, yes, but not even close to as often as Amy was used to. Haircare was important, and Josephine had an extensive haircare routine, but a lot of it involved brushing extensively twice a day and having your hair in various stylings that made it less likely to get especially dirty.

The stuff they did have to clean hair was pretty harsh, though they also had some perfumed oils and the like to make hair smell nicer.

All in all, Amy was missing the three-in-one shampoo-conditioner-body wash she used back home.

So Amy was left using a brush and a fine toothed comb on her hair after getting water in it, and cursing at her tangles, and the brittleness was getting worse and -

Maybe I should just cut it all off. She didn't really care about her hair anyway, she'd only ever kept it long because Vicky had said she liked Amy's hair and how 'fuzzy' it looked once, and -

And Vicky wasn't here. And by the time she got home, her hair would have probably regrown anyway and -

But the hair's what I have of her, in that. Something she liked, something that's...

Amy picked up her long-dead phone. She hadn't actually gotten around to trying to charge the battery with the sun, forgetting a lot or just not wanting to do it, or...

She popped the case open and set the battery out on the table, where it should be able to catch some sun, and she hoped it did work. It would be nice to see pictures of Vicky again.

Giving up on her hair halfway through, Amy dressed, putting on her armor because she knew Cassandra would demand she wear it when they did more jogging, and then put on her robes.

She liked the hood, and the fact that she could sorta hide within the robes, and... it was easier to just... hide behind Panacea when she was wearing them.

Thedas had somehow done the impossible and almost made her think being 'Panacea' rather than Amy Dallon wasn't stupid. Almost.

Still better than Herald.
To pass the time, she tried reading some more of Brother Genitivi's book, reading the section on Elfroot, and then others on other herbs and plants used in medicine. They weren't as extensive as the entries in that 'Extracts from the Botanical Compendium for the Healing Arts', but they gave her something.

As far as she could tell, none of the other medicinal plants were quite as bullshit as elfroot was, in terms of ease of being turned into something that could heal, or the full range of what they could do. They were still bullshit since as far as she could tell they'd work just as well on elves as humans - (and dwarves, but they were biologically close enough to humans that that almost made sense. Though Amy was sure there probably were differences that Genitivi's book didn't discuss) but Amy was pretty sure that whatever magic was apparently responsible for elven biology probably made sure it like... functioned right with everything else.

I really need to get a real 'look' at elfroot. And maybe look into Alchemy. There was an alchemist here in Haven, right? And maybe she could touch someone who was being healed by magic or drinking a potion and see how it went?

But that would mean not healing someone who needs it and - I can't do that for -

Experiments didn't trump people who were suffering and hurting that she could help.

So... not really an option.

As Amy sat with that realization, Cassandra arrived and as predicted, off they went to jog. Amy hated every second of the lap around the village, but drew up short as they finished it and Cassandra held up a hand.

"We'll stop with this for now."

Amy sucked in air, legs sore from even the one lap. Less than that first time, maybe, but still, sore. She leaned against the wooden wall surrounding Haven.

"Not that I'm complaining, but why are we stopping so soon?" She accepted a waterskin from Cassandra and took a sip, swishing the water around her mouth first and then handed the skin back to Cassandra and swallowed.

"I have something else in mind." Cassandra 'answered' ominously. She gestured for Amy to follow her and they went over to the training ground, where Cullen was barking orders at what Amy assumed were new recruits, running them through some sort of spear drills. Cassandra led her over to a row of wood and straw training dummies, some of whom 'wore' armor - leather on some, well beaten and dented steel on a few.

There was a rack of weapons just inside a small tent. Blinking, Amy watched, confused, as Cassandra produced a long wooden staff - though it was entirely plain and undecorated, no weird shapes at the top or whatever, unlike the handful of mages staffs Amy had seen so far.

It did have a series of thin metal bands wrapped around either end of it.

"Here," Cassandra lightly tossed the staff at Amy, and Amy just stood there, staring at Cassandra as it hit the ground at her feet.

"What the hell?" Amy looked down at the staff, then back to Cassandra. "I said I don't fight! You seemed pretty okay with that? It's why I'm stuck with Katerina all the time!"

"Even if you were willing to fight, given your lack of experience, you'd need a bodyguard. And, unfortunately, battlefields are a dangerous place, and twice now, you have been at great risk, despite our best efforts." Cassandra pointed out. "Normally, I would simply say you should be kept from danger, or allowed to take your own risks, but you are too important for those chances. Given that you are reluctant to use your power in your defense-"
"For damn good reasons!" Amy snapped, interrupting. "I have rules-" Before she could go any farther, Cassandra raised her voice and interrupted Amy in turn.

"I am not arguing with you about these 'rules' you speak of, nor even asking you to explain them." Cassandra closed the distance between them and crouched down, picking up the staff, standing back up, and half-forcing it into Amy's hand. "But your lack of desire to use your power in your defense does put you at even more risk. Even if you weren't so reluctant, it may not be enough. Had the abomination been less interested in grandstanding, it might have killed you."

Amy shrank in on herself and her hand tightened around the staff involuntarily, knowing how true it was.

Cassandra sighed, "Granted, grandstanding is not uncommon among blood mages, but we can't count on only blood mages and others of a similar bent to be the only ones to try to kill you."

"Oh fucking joy, let's list off all the people who want me dead. And I was having such a good day," Amy didn't care that she was being an ass now, because really, the last thing she wanted to think about was people wanting to kill her. She dropped the staff, but standing as close as she was, Cassandra caught it before it could hit the ground.

"I am not a fighter," Amy said, insistent.

"This much is obvious," Cassandra replied, and Amy flushed a little. Why do I care? I know I'm not!

"I don't want to fight."

"Also already established." Cassandra nodded, "But I'm not sure that this is a luxury you have anymore." Cassandra tried to hand her back the staff, but Amy refused.

"I'm not doing this! I don't want to fight. I won't fight!"

"I am not asking you to take the front line against demons before rifts are closed. I'm not even proposing you come along with us when I or others are dealing with other threats to clear the way to rifts, even in the back line. But, if something happens, it's better to have the option."

"I'm Panacea. I'm a healer. I don't hurt people." It was bad enough she'd had to be so close to fighting. That she had to wear this armor. That she'd broken her rules with the abomination. "The only good thing about this stupid, awful power I never asked for is that I was never expected to get into fights."

"I never wanted to fight. I never wanted powers. God, you guys would be so much better off if Victoria had been the one to get sent here."

Amy couldn't imagine she'd be better off though, thinking Victoria was dead at the 'hands' of a Bakuda bomb. Prospects raised themselves, about how she'd (completely fail to) handle it, how she'd respond but she refused to think about them, to follow that train of thought, doing her best to focus on the matter at hand.

"So you say," Cassandra replied noncommittally. "But you are here, not her. You do not want to fight, and such... peaceful intent is admirable, in a way, but Thedas is not a place that looks kindly on those with no means to defend themselves. Especially not a young woman in your position." She stepped back and lifted the staff up. "There is a reason I propose a staff, as opposed to other weapons."

"Because everyone keeps calling me a mage?" Might as well play to form. She wore robes - not that her robes looked anything like what she'd seen mages wear, but who cared about that? -

"The number of mages who use their staffs as weapons to hit their opponent is actually quite rare. When mages are skilled in the art of combat, they are more likely to make use of a sword, spear, bow, or other more lethal weapon." Cassandra answered. She stepped back further and swung the staff around in a small arc in front of her - despite the distance between them now, Amy instinctively stepped back, away from the staff...

"The primary advantages of a staff as a weapon are its simplicity of use, its limited lethality compared to a blade, and the range at which one can keep opponents at bay." Cassandra explained. She held the staff straight up, resting one end on the ground. "You are not a fighter. Using a staff well requires skill. But it is much harder to hurt yourself with a staff than with a blade, if you lack skill."

"I lack skill because I'm not a fighter, and that's not going to change!" Amy dug in on her position, glaring at Cassandra. "I. Do. Not. Fight."

Cassandra made another one of those scoff/snarl noises of disgust that Amy had heard from her many times before, and she closed the distance between herself and Amy again. "You do now, Amy," Cassandra said bluntly. "Whether you like it or not, your life will regularly be in danger for the rest of your time in Thedas, and I will not allow you to continue to be utterly helpless. It is up to you if you actually use the staff to defend yourself, but," she grabbed Amy's arm with one gloved hand, using the other to pry her fingers apart, and then shoved the staff into her hand, closing the fingers around it.

Amy let out a yelp as she was manhandled, but Cassandra didn't seem to care, and short of grabbing Cassandra's neck and doing something to her, Amy didn't exactly have a lot of options.

Cassandra stepped back to the tent and pulled another staff from it, though this one didn't have the bands of metal around either end.

"You can use it to defend yourself, or you can take the hits. You will need a potion either way by the time we're done for today, the question is: How badly will you need it?"

Cassandra held the staff in both hands and then swung the lower end of her staff, in a sort of 'underhanded' move and it rapped against Amy's shin. Amy yelped again, the pain ringing up her leg. It wasn't that bad, thanks to the armor on her legs but it still hurt! She jumped back a little, lifting her left leg up and shaking it a moment, wincing still.

"What the fuck?!"

"A staff can kill your opponent, if you hit them hard enough in the right places, but a blow to the extremities, or a lighter blow to the torso, is exceedingly unlikely to kill your enemy, without significant strength behind it." Cassandra said, as if Amy hadn't said anything. She stepped forward and swung the staff around, swinging down towards Amy's arm - Amy tried to step back, but this time she stumbled and landed on her ass. Cassandra didn't let up as Amy tried to scramble to her feet, one hand still holding onto the staff Cassandra had given her.

"What the fuck are you doing?" Amy demanded again. Cassandra's staff blow hit Amy's arm and the pain of the strike reverberated up her arm, eliciting another yelp from Amy.

"Most people prefer to avoid getting hit in the first place, and a staff's length can keep your enemy at bay. Or, if they lose their footing in the process, put them at your mercy." Cassandra extended a hand to help Amy up, and after a long glare at it, Amy accepted the hand, standing up.

"As I said," Cassandra noted, "It is your choice if you defend yourself or not, but trust me - others who fight you will not give you the same luxury of minimal force."

"That's minimal?"

"Compared to what I could do, yes." Cassandra said simply. She stepped back again, raising the staff.

She's insane. She's lost it. She - why is she - what is she -

"You have a weapon. Even if you do not wish to strike back, you can defend yourself. Or, I can hit you again. You have choices. Pick one."

"I'm not -" Amy started to protest, and then Cassandra's staff hit her right shin. Amy yelped again, stumbling, catching herself with the staff in her hand. "Stop hitting me!"

"Make an effort to stop me."

---

Author's Note: Another early posting, another time I'm ahead of the game. Expect another update two weeks from now, as per normal. That next update will be a pair of Interludes, one from Cassandra and one from Josephine. They're short enough, even together, that I didn't feel like it was fair to space them out separately. There will be more interludes down the line, but when is up in the air, as I'm still deciding on those details. At a minimum, I am committed to a Cullen Interlude, a Katerina Interlude and a Solas Interlude before the end of 'Book 1' (which ends at the end of 'Act 1' of the Game itself - DAI doesn't have formal acts, but it does narratively break up into three specific parts pretty well.) The Solas Interlude will be close to the end of Book 1, but I'm not sure about the Cullen or Katerina ones, or if I'll give Interludes to Varric or anyone else.

 

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"I never abandoned the service of the Chantry and the Maker!" The Templar snarled. "Had your kind not rebelled, none of this would have happened."
"Right, and so they were supposed to just stand there and take it and die, forever, were they, Ser Gilbert?"

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