John Hamilton
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John Hamilton
"I need to talk to him."
Oxhorn shrugged, I went onto my carpet and flew back to the tree, to Compass. There was a line of people, I waited my turn and found a golem.
"Professor."
I felt a sense of worry, it had been years.
"Welcome back John."
I stared at the golem.
"You remember me?"
"I remember all of my students John, all of my memories are like fly's frozen in amber. I heard you got your revenge?"
"Yes."
I suddenly felt a little lost.
"Well then come down with my golem, I'm looking over a few things."
"You're not busy?"
"Im always busy but I finally cleaned up that purple dye mess, so I'm in a good mood. I'm in one of the upper levels, if you want to talk person to person."
An elevator opened and I followed a golem.
"Heard you joined our new airforce."
"Yes, was that all your work?"
"I wish, I had a lot of help with that from former students like yourself."
The door opened and I blinked, I saw a temple of some sort.
"Where am I?"
"An exact recreation of a place long lost."
I followed the golem into a large building and saw scrolls, servitors lovingly maintained them. I followed the golem through the twisting corridors of greek pillars until I got to the center where Merlin stood over a scroll.
"What is this place?"
"When do you think I became aware of earth?"
I shrugged.
"I don't know."
"52 BC, one of my probes discovered your solar system."
I heard the sound of snapping fingers and saw an image.
"Earth 50 BC, it discovered your world it explored a great many places scanning them, 90% of the information that probe took was of one place, a library in Egypt."
I shrugged, it didn't sound important.
"I had protocols, orders. If life was scanned scan as much as possible, if intelligent life was found find a library and get an exact scan. Then look for more. That little probe gathered so much information that its stealth systems completely crashed."
"Stealth systems?"
"Didn't know how advanced a life form would be or how hostile, the system failed around May 18th 44BC."
he sighed.
"It took around 300 years for that probe to come back to me, it took me another thousand or so years for me to wake up from my cryosleep and then it took so long for me to get to your world."
"But you're a master of magic."
"The Milkyway is big, really really big, and I am not a god."
I looked at him.
"What is my purpose in life?"
"I do not know."
"What is the meaning of life?"
"I don't have a clue, I don't know if life even has a meaning."
I frowned.
"Is there a god?"
"I honestly do not know, I hope so."
"What happens to us after we die?"
Merlin shrugged.
"I have no idea what happens."
I felt a sense of frustration.
"How much does a human soul weigh?"
"21 grams or .741 of an ounce if you use imperial this is average weight some people have larger souls then others."
I stared at him.
"You know the weight of the human soul but you don't know what happens to us after we die?"
"The human soul is a measurable variable. Heaven, hell, reincarnation I don't have the instruments to measure that."
I felt a sense of desperation.
"I remember when every thing was clear, when I had a purpose and now that I fullfilled it I don't know what I'm doing, who I am."
"I'm sorry John but I can not give you a purpose, thats something you have to create for yourself."
"This would be so much easier if my father was around."
"Maybe so."
He turned back to his scroll.
"Can't you just give me ansers?"
"Not without lying to you John, a part of being wise is recognizing that you're not infallible and that no one knows every thing, that we have strengths and weaknesses. Thats why I'm trying to get professors that know more about other subjects to teach here."
The bubbling frustration came to a head.
"Then lie to me."
Merlin tilted his head.
"No."
I froze.
"What?"
"No, John. This has been a habit of yours. You want the world to be a simple one, a story where you're the hero. Well other people have stories John, other people are important too. You're not the only student I have had John, you're not the only one with a burning ambition, or a desire for revenge or just feeling lost."
He paused.
"You came here looking for power, to get your revenge. I offered you more then that but you refused it."
"Congratulations about your victory in Denmark."
"You're changing the subject John. Every time you feel some discomfort that doesn't fit your view of the world or of yourself you try to avoid it, that's one of the reasons why you feel lost."
I felt a sense of akwardness, of realization.
"I, I think I wasted my time here, wasted my life, I spent so much of it on one man and now I don't know who I am anymore."
I sat down on a stone table.
"I know what that's like John."
"Really the great and wise Merlin, was once a failure?"
He looked at me with tired eyes.
"I am very very old John, I have failed numerous times, I have made numerous mistakes and I have a lot of regrets. I have felt just as lost at you do at this moment, and I pushed through it and in time so will you."
I looked down.
"Thank you."
I got up.
"I'm sorry for being a pest."
"John I have had many students, and some of them have been annoying, some of them have been proud and some of them arrogant. It is true you were a very challenging student but I'm still happy that you came here, problems and all."
A servitor came forward and I saw a book.
"What's this?"
"A gift, some thing to celebrate you finally growing up."
I stared at it.
"Margites, never heard of it."
"Its a little obscure true but the author wrote some good stuff in the past and I think you will like this."
"Who's Homer?"
Merlin sighed.
"History teacher, humanities, I have to hire some actual professors clearly."
I smiled.
"Thank you sir."
"You're welcome John I wish you luck."
I turned around and started walking away.
"Oh and John?"
I looked back at him.
"I forgive you for the purple dye prank."
I froze, a feeling of terror in my veins.
"Thank you sir."
"I trust it won't ever happen again?"
My mouth was dry.
"No sir it won't."
"I need to talk to him."
Oxhorn shrugged, I went onto my carpet and flew back to the tree, to Compass. There was a line of people, I waited my turn and found a golem.
"Professor."
I felt a sense of worry, it had been years.
"Welcome back John."
I stared at the golem.
"You remember me?"
"I remember all of my students John, all of my memories are like fly's frozen in amber. I heard you got your revenge?"
"Yes."
I suddenly felt a little lost.
"Well then come down with my golem, I'm looking over a few things."
"You're not busy?"
"Im always busy but I finally cleaned up that purple dye mess, so I'm in a good mood. I'm in one of the upper levels, if you want to talk person to person."
An elevator opened and I followed a golem.
"Heard you joined our new airforce."
"Yes, was that all your work?"
"I wish, I had a lot of help with that from former students like yourself."
The door opened and I blinked, I saw a temple of some sort.
"Where am I?"
"An exact recreation of a place long lost."
I followed the golem into a large building and saw scrolls, servitors lovingly maintained them. I followed the golem through the twisting corridors of greek pillars until I got to the center where Merlin stood over a scroll.
"What is this place?"
"When do you think I became aware of earth?"
I shrugged.
"I don't know."
"52 BC, one of my probes discovered your solar system."
I heard the sound of snapping fingers and saw an image.
"Earth 50 BC, it discovered your world it explored a great many places scanning them, 90% of the information that probe took was of one place, a library in Egypt."
I shrugged, it didn't sound important.
"I had protocols, orders. If life was scanned scan as much as possible, if intelligent life was found find a library and get an exact scan. Then look for more. That little probe gathered so much information that its stealth systems completely crashed."
"Stealth systems?"
"Didn't know how advanced a life form would be or how hostile, the system failed around May 18th 44BC."
he sighed.
"It took around 300 years for that probe to come back to me, it took me another thousand or so years for me to wake up from my cryosleep and then it took so long for me to get to your world."
"But you're a master of magic."
"The Milkyway is big, really really big, and I am not a god."
I looked at him.
"What is my purpose in life?"
"I do not know."
"What is the meaning of life?"
"I don't have a clue, I don't know if life even has a meaning."
I frowned.
"Is there a god?"
"I honestly do not know, I hope so."
"What happens to us after we die?"
Merlin shrugged.
"I have no idea what happens."
I felt a sense of frustration.
"How much does a human soul weigh?"
"21 grams or .741 of an ounce if you use imperial this is average weight some people have larger souls then others."
I stared at him.
"You know the weight of the human soul but you don't know what happens to us after we die?"
"The human soul is a measurable variable. Heaven, hell, reincarnation I don't have the instruments to measure that."
I felt a sense of desperation.
"I remember when every thing was clear, when I had a purpose and now that I fullfilled it I don't know what I'm doing, who I am."
"I'm sorry John but I can not give you a purpose, thats something you have to create for yourself."
"This would be so much easier if my father was around."
"Maybe so."
He turned back to his scroll.
"Can't you just give me ansers?"
"Not without lying to you John, a part of being wise is recognizing that you're not infallible and that no one knows every thing, that we have strengths and weaknesses. Thats why I'm trying to get professors that know more about other subjects to teach here."
The bubbling frustration came to a head.
"Then lie to me."
Merlin tilted his head.
"No."
I froze.
"What?"
"No, John. This has been a habit of yours. You want the world to be a simple one, a story where you're the hero. Well other people have stories John, other people are important too. You're not the only student I have had John, you're not the only one with a burning ambition, or a desire for revenge or just feeling lost."
He paused.
"You came here looking for power, to get your revenge. I offered you more then that but you refused it."
"Congratulations about your victory in Denmark."
"You're changing the subject John. Every time you feel some discomfort that doesn't fit your view of the world or of yourself you try to avoid it, that's one of the reasons why you feel lost."
I felt a sense of akwardness, of realization.
"I, I think I wasted my time here, wasted my life, I spent so much of it on one man and now I don't know who I am anymore."
I sat down on a stone table.
"I know what that's like John."
"Really the great and wise Merlin, was once a failure?"
He looked at me with tired eyes.
"I am very very old John, I have failed numerous times, I have made numerous mistakes and I have a lot of regrets. I have felt just as lost at you do at this moment, and I pushed through it and in time so will you."
I looked down.
"Thank you."
I got up.
"I'm sorry for being a pest."
"John I have had many students, and some of them have been annoying, some of them have been proud and some of them arrogant. It is true you were a very challenging student but I'm still happy that you came here, problems and all."
A servitor came forward and I saw a book.
"What's this?"
"A gift, some thing to celebrate you finally growing up."
I stared at it.
"Margites, never heard of it."
"Its a little obscure true but the author wrote some good stuff in the past and I think you will like this."
"Who's Homer?"
Merlin sighed.
"History teacher, humanities, I have to hire some actual professors clearly."
I smiled.
"Thank you sir."
"You're welcome John I wish you luck."
I turned around and started walking away.
"Oh and John?"
I looked back at him.
"I forgive you for the purple dye prank."
I froze, a feeling of terror in my veins.
"Thank you sir."
"I trust it won't ever happen again?"
My mouth was dry.
"No sir it won't."