So I forget how this goes for this story... do I causally just tell you where I've been for the past sixteen months? Well that's easy, writing Monjai, my second fic that is large like this one. That I'm not even close to finishing... Honestly Monjai is looking like it will be even bigger than this one will in the end. It is currently more fun than writing Rot... but, I want to try writing for both. No real schedule for that, just which ever I feel like when I have time. Today, or last week really, it was Rot, but I am also writing Monjai too, not far from completing the next chapter of that too.
Also it was extremely hard to write for characters that I haven't touched in a year, so I hope this is still in character, that the twelve consecutive hours it took to reread Rot was worth it. Also I hope it shows how I've improved...
School was...fine...
The final bell rings causing the humans in the room to start to pack up for the day. I sigh, cool breath fogging the warmer spring air, and start to do the same. I ignore the stares I get as I stand, my many silver eyes keeping watch of the other students of Arcadia.
I lock eyes with a few of them, sending shivers down their spine and them to quickly look away. I don't care really, I'm not here for them. The tasty meat surrounding me, trapped inside a box of concrete with me... I feel my hunger flip in my body. They are not trapped in here with me, I'm trapped in here with them...
I sigh again causing a small spike of fear in the people around me, making my body ache to be satisfied. I pick up my bag and shift my teeth around my hair a bit to be more teeth on the outside of my curtains, and more eyes to be in my hood, at least I don't have to 'physically' look at them. Spiritually, my ghost can even see the heat spots through the walls, another new thing from Simurgh.
I move my bag to hide under my thick drapes of black hair and feathers, and white shiny teeth. I glance, with my 'normal' eyes set in my skull, at frozen class room. I squeeze the leather straps of my bag, bone covered hands clicking with the pressure. Even the teacher has stopped to stare...
Still better than Winslow.
I quickly, but not quick enough to show just how slow humanity is to me now, move past the other students and make my way for the exit, the click of my exoskeleton covered feet sharp on the tiles. In the hall I get more stares, but people give me a wide berth which I'm thankful for really. The hunger has long lost its power over me after eating the endbringer in February. It never leaves me, but I also know that no one I am looking at will be enough to satisfy it either.
At least it's the weekend now, I smile a bit, it will be fun to have a break from the living, or at least the living that are strangers. Lisa, dad, and some random others are okay. Thoughts of my girlfriend and my others lift me a bit higher but stop to a point when I remember who is in my backyard.
I shake my head causing my feathers to make fluttery noises. No, don't think about... the child... You mourned her, buried her, and left an open invitation to come to us when her- I stumble a bit as the reality of her situation catches in my rotting brain -when her century is up.
I feel a hiccup in my throat despite not having the muscles for it, but I quickly recall where exactly I am. Don't let them see you weak, I remind myself, they'll try to hurt you if they see weakness and that will end poorly for them. I glace around at a few of the frozen teenagers openly staring at me.
A hiss from my throat is papery and wasp-like, not as strong as my cicada song, but it makes them visibly back away. I quickly move towards the exit and visibly relax as I am no longer in the closed space with the stink of humanity closing in from all sides. I move to rush down the steps and towards the high walled gates of Arcadia.
My first week back among the living was harder than I thought in some ways and easier than I hoped in others.
I still had no friends, but I also avoided everyone as much as possible. The excuse of eating with my mother during lunch working well for both of us, as it meant that I didn't have to find a bathroom to hide from people, and people didn't have to see what exactly I carry around in my Alexandria lunchbox. Most people are put off by my diet and I don't want it spread around that I eat rotting food and dead insects.
They haven't tried messing with me yet, but I'm not willing to give them ammunition. A kill order is the last thing my living family, and Lisa, needs, everyone else would be fine though. Not like anyone Rose hasn't invited in can find our house. It is fun watching the reporter breeze past Rose's shell (our house) though. The blank look of confusion as they stare at the sky next to our house or walk up to one of our neighbors instead is funny.
I smirk at the memory of mom Rose asking if she could hunt them. It was an idea to let the haunted house, black ooze skeleton thing that is my mom's other start accepting in 'intruders' as she calls acceptable prey. The fact that she can 'say' 'guest' and have it sound like family is impressive, still embarrassing that she sometimes calls dad 'resident'.
I feel my monotone flesh grow cold and grey spread across my face at some of what we've heard at night from my parent's room. Lisa's on-going commentary on various positions between the three... I had to fill her mouth with my hand to get her to stop, that is the only reason it has nothing to do with me wanting her to chew my-
honk! honk!
The sound of a car horn draws me out of my fantasies about just where Lisa's teeth have been recently and makes me look up to see a glossy black slime person hiding a skeleton and a very tasty looking blonde. I smile as Rose and Lisa start waving me to our beat-up station wagon. My smile fixes a bit as Lisa sends me a smug look; I stare for a bit, but she just starts wiggling her eyebrow. She is getting way too good at reading me, I think as my eyes narrow.
Well, better head over and kiss that grin off her face, I hurry to the car.
Or at least I would if somebody didn't step out from behind a bush inside the gate. "Hey Frankie," he shouts as I stop in front of him, "the Empire says hello dyke!"
I tense as he reaches for something, trying to widen my stance to block most of the other students from possible gunfire if he pulls out a machine gun.
I nearly laugh as he pulls out a knife instead. It's not even as long as my own claws...
He moves forward, but I'm already in front of him. His body so much slower, so much less than mine. I grab his hand, bone claws crushing down on it as I shiver at his snapping bones. It makes me imagine dragging my tongue across the breaks, licking up all the bruised cells and exposed marrow. I shouldn't be thinking that, but I really like it too.
Him screaming though sets me, and the rest of the populated school yard, off-kilter. I can see as many students run back in doors, leaving only about sixty students left. A few of the security guards are either talking on their radios or hesitating on coming over to make sure I don't eat him? I'm not gonna do that, right? I look down at the purpling bruised flesh in my grip, he is now dangling off of his wrist, the knife he was going to use is in two. The blade resting on the ground, and the handle is still in his mangled hand.
Oops? I shake my head a bit to try and think about what I did wrong here.
I take a closer look at the yard. The students are staring at me from every direction, the open air and the cross wind make it hard for me to smell the general mood, but I am not inadequate with their facial expressions. I can see a few of them huddled together holding friends that just couldn't look or were trying to get them to stop looking.
I look back down at the man who tried to stab me. He is done up in full E88 regalia, leather jacket sporting their symbols... distinct lack of tattoos, odd, maybe this is some kind of newbie? He has tears streaking down his face as he weakly tries to pull his hand from mine. My hunger is not here though, all I can feel right now is a bit confused. I broke his hand… why did I need to do that?
Everyone is shocked, or crying, or scared? He had a knife only though…
I glance up at Lisa from where she watches in our car, she looks concerned. Slowly though, she smiles, and I feel one grow on my own face at it. I drop the human easily, ignoring his whimpers as he curls into a ball. It really is a nice smile... I wonder if she still wants to go out tomorrow. She didn't seem thrilled at the idea of a wheelchair, so we are just going to have to carry her, but I hope she doesn't mind the lack of mobility we'll allow her.
I stop my musing as I spot a certain person float out of the crowd. Ah yes, another thing that I've been up to this week, avoiding Glory Girl. It is nothing particularly personal, we got over that fight a long time ago, but still, she's a living human that knows more about my eating habits... you know by being subject to it. Honestly it is embarrassing, sort of like an accidental kiss, and I'm nothing if not terrible at confronting these things.
As the blond finally hovers her way over the students, I can see Amy coming too. And there is the other person I'm avoiding... it hurts to look at the healer, and I have to give myself a few mental shakes to see that her face isn't wide mouthed, that her hair is not a darker brown, and that she doesn't look so much younger. That she's Amy not… the child.
I turn to them, ignoring how I step backwards a bit to stand over the ganger. My ghost rests its head onto my shoulder as I wait for them to speak.
"You've been avoiding me," Glory Girl starts, her arms crossed as she floats a meter above the ground.
"I have been busy," and I don't particularly want to talk either. Embarrassment way aside, talking to the living is exhausting... usually not worth it too. Everyone I do talk to is an outlier.
"Oh yeah," she tries to look down on me from her nose, but it has nothing on moms' glares. The crowd takes a backstep though...
"Vicky, your aura." Amy starts to walk towards me, her face grumpy, and I can see that she has not been living light. She looks tired, smells it too. "Hey... Frankie?"
I huff, "I'm an out cape Amy, you could shout my name to the rooftops, and it wouldn't make a difference." Secret identities cannot help the dead, they certainly can't help the undead either. "How's it going," I say softer, "you look exhausted?"
Amy flinches and I can see her sister stiffen midair. The fear must have been shrinking cause I can now see a few people with their phones out. "I-," I look back at the freckled girl, "I've been better." She sags a bit as if admitting that hurt. "Do you mind if I look at your Nazi there, shame if you got charged."
"I'm pretty sure that it will happen anyways." Legal stuff during my time undead has been shit as is, not as bad as the stuff from my life, but still very shitty. Lisa helps, but we both understand that it only hurts less when we are together. I step back and let the healer come closer. I try not to stare at her hair as she crouches down, but I can't help it. I smile as she both asks the E88 to stop bitching and knocks him out when he doesn't. I can see that Glory Girl is getting more and more irritated though.
I look back up at her with the eyes in my face and she straightens again. "Did you want to talk or something." I'm definitely going to have to talk to her now, despite my wants, we go to the same school. I'm lucky this didn't happen first day. Doesn't mean it has to be here though. "Maybe somewhere without the audience?"
Please say yes, or no and that you don't want to talk anymore. I'm not picky, I'll take either.
"I... guess," she looks back at the maybe sixty students behind her, "you on PHO?"
"A bit, I'll send you a message, Izzy will know your username."
"Okay," Amy starts as she stands up, "all fixed." I nod and start to turn for the car.
"Wait!" I turn back to 'look' at the hovering cape. "You can't just leave a crime scene, what about reporting it?"
I can see Lisa starting to get out of the car, but mom stops her and points back into the crowd. Oh, there's mom... She smiles big and toothy at me which I return after a bit, smiles are good, right? I can't be in too much trouble if mom's smiling...
"Miss Dallon." The cape's ears go pink for a second before spinning around to face mom.
"Mrs. Hebert!"
"How is that essay going, I know I gave you an extension because you picked a rather hard subject matter," she is all smiles as the cape lands at mom's feet.
"It's uh going..."
"I see, well I just wanted to remind you that it is due on Monday still, so you have all the weekend to work on it before you present."
"Aww... I was gonna go to the movies though..."
Mom's smile loses its sharp points as the cape that was just trying to act all big and serious deflates. "I'm sure if you spend your time well, you'll have plenty of time for both," she says causal before walking up to me and hugging me. "Hey little owl, how was school?"
"It was okay." My face is grey, and I try my hardest not to notice all of the eyes looking at me, kind of hard when you have hundreds. "Can we leave?" "I want to go home," I whisper gently balling her sweater in my claws.
"Of course, Taylor," she breaks from the hug and turns to the slowly retreating Amy. "Hello Amy," she says stopping the girl in her tracks, "you should come by for tea sometime, I'd love to chat about anything really, we get so few guests." Might have to do with the fact that Rose's shell is impossible to find unless she wants it to be, but hey if it keeps the arsonists out... Need to look into that...
"Uh sure, I'll ask my... parents." I feel my face soften at her reminder that she is already in a family. According to Lisa it is definitely an adoptive one too, but I'm not sure if that makes Nimi's list any less odd. Even I don't know exactly how she picks; cause I know for a fact that her list doesn't contain just every kid she's ever seen, she skips some for some reason. There is something, something that she's not sharing, and I'm not a big enough jerk to just dive into any of my other's private sections of memory.
My hunch though is its stress. Both Vista and Amy are on that list, and stress seemed to be almost dried to their skins. Like it was such a common thing that the hormones were sweat out that it just became a part of their smell.
Mom has an entirely different reaction to Amy's words though, her eyes narrow making Amy's heart beat a bit faster. "Do let them know that two on Saturdays are a great time to visit." Right just after lunch and the cleanup of said lunch, Rose would probably not like for a 'guest' to see what we eat. Not unless she was trying to scare somebody...
"I'll," I smell a bead of sweat form on the healer's back, "let them know." Mom nods, her lips pulled back into a very sharp smile.
"Okay, mom stop scaring Amy we got to go." Annette at least has the decency to flush a pale blue, but she still waves to her as we walk to the car. Lisa's grin is wide and smug, and Rose in the driver's seat is not far behind it.
"Oh, hello dear," Annette says before leaning down and kissing Rose, embarrassing me entirely as I quickly slide in next to Lisa. I quickly tune them out as Annette climbs into the car over Rose.
"Hey Lisa," I relax full once my head rests on her shoulder, just enjoying the break from people. "Where's the others?"
"Hey to you too," Lisa giggles as my hair traces her skin, her shaky hands slowly buckling herself up. Something she doesn't really need with me here, but I'm happy that she has got enough coordination and strength with her arms again. "Nimi and Moth decided that it wasn't fair that they got to have me all to themselves while you were at school," I snuggle closer to her listening to her heart and lungs as she speaks, "so they decided that you get to have some alone time with me too."
I smile into her neck at how sweet the thought was, even if I technically made it for myself. Good to know that all that time I spent self-loathing in life, has failed to follow me entirely into my death.
"And if what I saw of your schooling today, I'd say it is a bit more exciting than you wanted, huh." Lisa pets my hair even as I think about how much this week wasn't awful it just also wasn't good. "So, what happened with GG and Ames?"
"E88," I grunt, "thought a knife was enough to try hurting me, clearly he was sacrificial."
"Yeah probably... did you mean to crush his hand?"
"I didn't really think about it." Clearly, I'm out of practice, despite all of our team's threats of bodily harm it is not our goal. Lung was different of course, and if Hookwolf ever shows up we are not going to pull our punches, but I just broke every bone in a guy's hand after he pulled out a knife... That was overkill.
Lisa looks concerned, but she quickly grabs my hand. It is not lost on me that it is the one I just used to snap bones and break tendons. Makes me smile anyways, my teeth enjoying the way Lisa's heart feels on them. "I'll need to practice again, before I go out tonight." Wouldn't want to punch somebody and cave in their skull or something.
"Yeah, now what did the wonder kids want?"
"Glory Girl just wanted to talk, and I think Amy was trying to be nice," probably to keep her sister safe if we came to blows, "I told her that I'd set a time and place for a meet up... it hurt to see her." I watch the buildings fly by with a few of the eyes that aren't looking at my girlfriend.
"Amy?"
"Yeah, it was hard to look at somebody, that I've..."
"Imprinted on?"
I nod, images of the few people in that list between Nimi, Moth, and I come to mind. There is Nimi's list which is mostly kids, Vista, and Amy, then there is Moth's which includes people she watches in the park that feed the birds, a homeless kid who hangs out in the woods she feeds in, Officer Jones, and Armsmaster. Mine is Kurt, Lacey, Mrs. Knott oddly enough, and... the child, Emma. We all like them, most definitely would protect them, but they don't feel like what Moth and Nimi refer to as Pack. They don't run with us, but they are important.
Moms got similar ones too, mostly just people she met online, 'zombie hunters' I think they call themselves. I've never met them so I have no idea if it is something similar to them compared to mine, but I know that moms would probably hurt anybody that hurt them. Death has made her much more violent... and they're two of her.
Lisa hugs me closer, and I quickly climb on top of her. "I'm sorry that everything is so painful right now," Lisa kisses me, "but we are going on a date this weekend. Just me, you, you, and you, boardwalk, dinner, maybe some mischief?" She wiggles her eyebrows at me, and I smile, my mouth opening down to my clavicles, before wrapping my split lower jaw over hers. My tongue licks at her throat as I suction up to it. I purr as I can feel her own tongue rub up on the back of my sharp teeth, I quickly reach up with mine to explore her back.
When Lisa starts to speak into the hollow space of my mouth, I unseal from her. Enjoying the shiver, she gives when my cold breath flows across her, her eyes dilated out in such an appealing manner. God, she makes me hungry... "That was," she shakes her head, "new." Yeah, we haven't kissed with my real mouth like that. I mostly use it to bite her, I can mark up her whole back with it open like that.
"I wanted to try something different... I-it wasn't bad, was it?" Did she not like it?
"Not sure... do it again."
The car ride was far too quick in my opinion...
Welp, please tell me what you think, assuming anybody will read this after so long... Also if you like, you could read Monjai, its HP and in NSFW so if that's not your cup of tea don't bother, I ain't forcen' ya.