Chapter 37: Cersei V
"Her saddle girth burst whilst she was riding," said Ser Balmar.
Lady Falyse looked like she was about to cry. "Mother's hip shattered in the fall. Maester Franken did all he could, but to no avail. So now all we can do is pray..."
Cersei plastered a sympathetic smile on her face to hide her contempt for the simpering fool of a woman before her. "Of course, my lady. I shall add your poor dear mother to my prayers tonight."
"Your Grace is most kind."
I am more bored than kind, Cersei thought. A pity I am not supping with Lady Merryweather. Taena would be with one of Oberyn's impudent bastard girls tonight, and though Cersei knew it was best not to interrupt them, she could not help the urge when she felt it. Making pleasantries with these people was torture. Still, Cersei thought bemusedly, if all goes well this should have proven a fruitful evening indeed. Another thorn in my side removed... another tool in my hands...
Or so that had been the plan originally.
"How was your journey?" Cersei asked as though she did not already know, if only to break the silence.
"Uncomfortable," complained Falyse. "It rained most the way, and we were at one point accosted. Ser Balman dealt with them quick, but it was scary for a while."
Ser Balman nodded sagely. "Right ruffians, they were. Filthy, unkempt, with hide shields and stars on their foreheads. The Seven Pointed Star, in spite the evil looks in their eyes."
Cersei tutted in false commiseration. "It must have been terrible, my lady."
Falyse sniffled slightly uncomfortably and shrugged. "They were lice-ridden," she said. "But elsewise it was not so bad. Ser Balmar saw them off quick enough."
"Then I must commend his valour and bravery," Cersei said, laying it on thick. "I feel terribly guilty. After all you suffered on the road, I made you wait so long before granting you the simple courtesy of a meeting!"
Falyse flushed and shook her head. "Think nothing of it, Your Grace. The capital has been a pleasant enough place for us to stay for these past few weeks. Dare I say it seems cleaner and more orderly than when I was here last? And certainly safer, ever since the Mad King's wildfire was removed. To think he could do such a thing..."
"The Mad King had his name for a reason, my lady," Cersei simply said.
"Aye," Balmar said. "Year after year we seem to find evermore reason to be grateful to the late King Robert for rebelling. And His Grace has of course availed himself."
"High praise, ser," Cersei said. "Though I do agree. Tommen will make a good king when he comes of age."
Ser Balmar nodded and shifted uncomfortably in his seat. "Your Grace... An awkward matter yet... lest bad feeling linger between us, I should think you ought to know that neither of us had a name in the naming of Lady Lollys's bastard child. She is a simple creature, and her husband given to black moods. I told him to choose a more fitting name. One that would not offer insult upon your family. He laughed."
Cersei sipped her wine and studied the pair before her. Why must you tempt me so, Ser Balmar? Here was the perfect opportunity to be rid of her son's spymaster, and yet she could not say a word for fear of being revealed. No matter how subtle, how careful she was, Tommen's dreams...
Cersei shook herself from her reverie and plastered another false smile on her face. There is no single catspaw in all Seven Kingdoms that could hide my hand from my son's accursed sight. "My brother is known for his good sense of humour," she said, biting her lip. "And he and Bronn were close before the latter was rewarded for his brave service at the Blackwater and became Ser Bronn. I am certain he will not find it an insult."
Ser Balmar opened his mouth, thought better of it, and then pursed his lips in thought.
"And yet," Cersei said, unable to help herself, "Ser Bronn is well known as ever a tricksy sort. It would not be unwise to keep a close eye on him. Or, at least, that is what I would suggest. A burst saddle girth..."
Falyse balked. "Your Grace... Are you suggesting it was cut or tampered with in some way?"
"No, not at all," Cersei assured the pair. She might not be able to dispose of the sellsword, at least not so brazenly, but it was the least she could do to make his life a little more difficult. "I am certain Ser Bronn would never be so brazenly treacherous. But these are strange times. I mean, just a few years ago if anyone would have told you that Stannis Baratheon of all people would rise in rebellion against his own nephew, would you have believed them?"
Both Falyse and Ser Balmar shared a look. "We will take your advice to heart, Your Grace. Caution."
Cersei offered another smile and nodded, slowly standing from her seat. "It has been a great pleasure to sup with you both. I will be sure to keep Lady Tanda in my prayers tonight. And now if you can forgive me, I must be off."
"Of course, Your Grace."
Cersei turned and departed at a quick pace, eager for something besides boredom, allowing her pleasant demeanour to fall away as soon as she was alone. She marched through the halls and passages of the keep with purpose. Her gait made her feel like some great lord, an army at her back. Thoughts of Taena, and of the girl she was presently occupied testing, plagued her mind.
Nymeria Sand dreams of glory in war, she thought. Alas, the poor bastard whore was born a woman.
But that did not mean that the girl's life would be without purpose. Through the queen, she would attain power beyond her wildest imaginings. And for a brief moment before she lost her usefulness, she would have the ear of some of the most powerful people in the world. Her and her sisters both.
Bastard girls were often whores, were they not? Especially Dornish ones. And Nymeria certainly looked the part. She was slim, waif-like with straight black hair pulled back into a single long braid, breasts protruding proudly from a rib-lined chest. Large dark eyes blinked prettily, lashes batting. Lips full and luscious and red, more than fit to wrap around some lordling's cock. A violet gown covered her body, loose in some places and tight in others.
Yes, she thought, this one will make a far better slut than soldier. Not that her ambitions weren't in some sense admirable. Cersei had once desired to wield a blade and stand beside her father in battle in her youth, but such was not a woman's place. The bitch Brienne was the exception. An ugly freak. Beauty was a woman's best weapon, and wielded properly it could be more deadly than any blade.
A look from Taena affirmed her hopes. The girl is eager enough, the dusky woman was saying with her gaze. That was good, though Cersei still felt a certain hesitance. Oberyn Martell was a fiery man, after all, and Myrcella was still far away in Dorne. But in light of Tommen's dreams, Cersei would have to be more careful, and so she would need not one catspaw, but many. And having Nymeria in her circle would enhance her power regardless of how Cersei used her. The threat of the spears of Dorne would go some way in helping curb the Tyrell's power at court. It was a worthwhile risk. Especially if Cersei could pull Arianne Martell away from the Maid Margaery. The two had been getting far too close for comfort as of late, or so went the court gossip. Close enough, perhaps, to hint at scandal. Certainly close enough they might pose a threat to Cersei's already precarious position.
That was unacceptable.
And so long as she remained blatant about her intentions, Cersei reckoned, she retained the freedom to act. If she presumed that he knew everything that she knew, Tommen could not catch her unawares.
Not that he would have reason to do so. Not when all she intended to do was help him.
But these matters were best left for another day. For now, Nymeria Sand was first and foremost her informant. A remarkably useful one, as it came to be.
"Ser Osney is away to the Wall," she said. "His Grace had him in the Black Cells for a good while, or so some of the men tell me, but now he is well and truly away. Evidently they were told not to call him by name. His Grace greatly feared being found out - understandable, given Ser Osmund wears the white cloak."
"Hmm," Cersei grumbled, noting the news and disdaining it once she knew how ultimately useless the revelation of Ser Osney's fate was to her. "And Lyra? The girl?"
Nymeria shifted in her seat. Whether her discomfort was true or feigned, Cersei could not tell.
"There are... rumours, Your Grace," Nymeria began. "Here men were far tighter with their tongues, even when faced with my finer tricks. What I did learn was often confusing. One claimed she was the king's paramour. Another proclaimed her exactly as she was: his baseborn half-sister. Another claimed she was both, that His Grace has developed Targaryen inclinations in matters of the flesh, and that the girl would often leave his chambers beaming, dishevelled as though from some rough bout of love-making, or else with eyes brimming with tears. Some proclaim her Sansa Stark in disguise. Others declare she is secretly a boy, prevented from squiring to a true knight due to some grave failing, who put on the airs of a girl to win the Dame Brienne's favour as a last desperate ploy for knighthood."
Cersei frowned. This reeks of the Imp. Her son, for all his cleverness and foresight, tended to be blunter with his schemes. There was an assuredness in his movements, a certain straightforwardness that made one feel a fool when the simplistic truth was revealed - even in his grandest plots and plans - that spoke of either supreme confidence or else childish arrogance. This cloud of confusion seemed to suggest something more. That the rumours were not natural, that they were designed to confuse, to excite, to obscure the real, more plain truth beneath it all.
And then there was the outrageous element to it. A part of what she'd heard made her jaw clench, her hands tight with fury. Tommen is fucking his half-sister... Is this the dwarf's idea of a jape? Yet her fury fast morphed into fear. If someone wants to pit lion against lion than this would be the way to do it, she thought. Her disdain for her dwarf brother was well-known. The lesson of Baelish had been burned into her mind. You were so distracted by your hatred of each other that you failed to spot the real danger, sat just a scant few seats away, Tommen had said.
Her distraction, her disdain had cost her Joff his life. She could not allow herself to be led astray again, lest her last remaining son suffer the same fate. For the moment at least, she would have to swallow her pride.
I shall have to keep a closer eye on Lyra, Cersei resolved. Rash decisions at this time would only serve to weaken her. And with Tommen's dreams, Cersei struggled to see how he might be duped. He had taken this girl into his own personal confidences, and so quickly. Did he know? Was he using her, playing some hidden game for some unknown purpose? Or was he behaving his age, taken in by a little impish girl who reminded him of more innocent times? The seeds of envy stirred in her heart at the thought, a black simmering hatred that she had to work hard to keep hidden.
"And finally," Cersei said, "comes the question of your cousin."
Nymeria shifted uncomfortably in her seat, looking bashful. "Your Grace..."
"You said you wished to enter my confidences, yes? That you wished to become more than Oberyn's baseborn girl, to win some fame and glory for yourself? To perhaps even be made a dame? You said these things, and Lady Taena listened, did she not?"
Nymeria Sand seemed to wage a war with herself, hands fidgeting in her lap, eyes flitting about nervously. "Yes, Your Grace," she finally said.
"Well, I can make that happen for you," Cersei said. "But first I must ask you tell me of your cousin's plans."
"Arianne doesn't have a plan as such..." Nymeria trailed off. "She intended at first to seduce His Grace, but has grown frustrated after he repeatedly rebuffed her. Now..."
"Now what?" Cersei asked, leaning forwards.
"I'm not certain," Nymeria warned. "She could simply persist in her efforts."
"Guess."
"...The princess is a hot-blooded woman, you must understand," Nymeria explained cautiously. "As are all Dornishwomen, I suppose, but none moreso than her. She is rarely rebuffed. The Prince of Dorne was loathe to deny her anything, and has seldom punished her for her acts of defiance or daring." I'll need to correct that, Cersei thought. "And so now that she is finally faced with some resistance she is driven to evermore extreme measures to get her way."
Cersei felt herself tense. "So if not my son then who?" she asked. Who do I need to dispose of?
"If she can't have His Grace's heart," Nymeria said, squirming, bashful, "then I believe she reckons the Lord Hand's will suffice."
Cersei at first blinked in shock, then balked, then burst out with laughter. "My father?" she asked. "Ha! Let her try. Lord Tywin Lannister has not been stirred into lust since the death of my lady mother. Hells, it may well do him some good to share his bed with the Princess! As it is Arianne would be better off trying to get blood from a stone."
"That's just my guess, Your Grace," Nymeria was quick to assure her, in spite of sharing Cersei's look of bemusement. "I could well be wrong. For all I know the princess still intends to pursue the heart of His Grace. In this matter she has not taken me into her confidences. Not yet, at least."
The princess is not likely to be any more successful with Tommen than she is with Tywin, Cersei thought. Not if she has already tried and failed to win his affections. Yet she could not deny the part of her that still harboured doubts. I need to see my son.
Cersei shot a glance at Taena, and made to leave, slowly standing from her seat. Keep a close eye on this one, she said with her eyes.
Of course, Your Grace, Taena answered with hers.
"Well done, Lady Nym," she said. "You have won my confidences. Serve me well and I will see to it you are properly rewarded for your efforts."
Nymeria Sand inclined her head with respect. "Anything for Your Grace."
Cersei offered the baseborn girl a brittle smile. "Of course," she said, and turned on her heel and walked out of her solar. She passed through the passages of the Red Keep swiftly, but this time without urgency. A storm of thoughts and worries plagued her mind as she wandered. Even still, it was not long before she found herself standing outside Tommen's chambers.
At this hour, her son was fast asleep, Ser Loras standing vigil at his door.
She found him sprawled on his bed, his little wife missing. On occasion the king liked to sleep alone, more often than not it seemed as of late. In place of a little queen Tommen had little kittens adorn his bed. There was Ser Pounce, Lady Whiskers, Boots. Yet they kept their distance, sleeping on the corners. Tommen looked fitful, face furrowed and strained with worry, skin slick with sweat. He is having one of his dreams, Cersei realised.
Those same dreams that had so stymied her, ended her hour in the sun before it could truly begin. A surge of resentment rose through her gut. I could strangle him now, she thought, and all his dreams would be for naught. All notions of the Others would die with him.
Yet she did not move to wake him, simply observing for a long second. Her old love for her son was gone. He was no more her sweet little boy. He had not been since that accursed day when her eldest, her dearest, had been so cruelly murdered. Yet even Cersei had to admit the age looked becoming on his visage, much as she loathed what it had done to his character. His face reminded her of Jaime in his youth, yet untroubled by death and disfigurement, unburdened by the weight of the white cloak.
Tommen was about that age. That age when she and Jaime had shared their first kisses, their first embrace. He was older, even. His face reminded her of the days of Jaime's dogged pursuit, when he would accost her seemingly at random and press her against a wall in some distant corner of Casterly Rock and push and push till she had no choice to but to pretend to break, to pull him into her, hinting but never truly revealing that that was what she had wanted all along.
I fucked my brother, Cersei thought in a moment of impetuousness, why shouldn't I fuck my son? Is one truly any worse than the other? For all his dreams told him, it seemed likely that he would nevertheless be caught entirely unawares by such a move, left completely at her mercy. It would doubtless be pleasurable for her too, at least going by all the stories the Maid Margaery had made sure to spread around of her new husband's prowess. Yet though Jaime had made mock of himself for her many times, something told Cersei that Tommen would not be so pliable. It was better to be patient, play the doting mother, the concerned counsellor. To worm her way back into his close confidences. And if in time a opening presented itself she could act, but not a moment sooner.
Gods, Cersei cried to herself, half in lament, when did I become such a coward? The old her would have gone to any lengths. Even Joffrey, strong-willed as he was, caved to her more oft than not. That Cersei would have grasped Tommen by the cock as she had done to Lancel and offered no apologies for doing so. Her charms most certainly would have eclipsed anything his little wife was capable of. The most beautiful woman in all Seven Kingdoms is seldom spurned, she thought. She leaned over him, hesitant as her eyes flicked again over his features, half tempted to grab his face and press her lips to his, but again fear and doubt prevailed. She sighed, lowered herself to the edge of the bed, kissing his forehead as she gently jostled his shoulder.
Tommen started awake, eyes opening with a jerk, a moment of violent resistance to her touch, and then calm when he realised who it was holding him. "Mother?" a groggy voiced asked.
"You were having a nightmare," she explained, cradling his head.
"As I do most nights," Tommen said. "Yet I am not often awoken. What's wrong?"
"Nothing, sweetling," Cersei said, affecting her most compassionate tone. "I just wanted to see you, and I couldn't stand to see you suffer."
Tommen's face looked confused, half-torn between sympathy and suspicion. "That is kind of you," he said. "Yet suffer I must. I don't mind it much. The horrors I see are often distant, unlikely things. And to be forewarned is to be forearmed."
"Yet still I mislike it," Cersei complained. "Perhaps you could lighten your load? Tell someone what you see in greater detail?"
"Like you?" Tommen asked, with a glint in his eyes.
Cersei cynically shook her head. "Like anyone that you can trust. Like that Lyra girl. Or like your grandfather."
Tommen winced. "Best not Lyra," he said. Good, thought Cersei. "With Uncle Jaime gone, you are the only one who knows. I would sooner keep it that way."
"Then why not me?" Cersei pressed.
Tommen seemed hesitant. "I... I want to," he finally said. "But after all I have seen, how can I trust you? You, with all your plots and pettiness? You forget I have seen the ugliest sides of you, mother."
Cersei felt hatred and heartbreak make war in her chest. "I... I will be better," she said, forcing herself, the words emerging bitter on her tongue.
"You might well mean that," Tommen said, "but deep down I know you still want your hour in the sun."
"I do," Cersei confessed. "Yet sunlight can be shared. Is Queen Alysanne not still revered? Are not Visenya and Rhaenys? Yet still, Jaehaerys and Aegon ruled as great kings all the same, and are remembered as such. Sharing your light would not diminish it, sweetling."
Tommen smirked. "The power behind the throne, eh?"
"Would that be so bad?" Cersei asked. "To allow me to be known as the woman standing beside you, in that place, who helped you to your pride and glory?"
"No, it would not be bad at all," Tommen conceded, smirk growing to a grin. "So long as you could bear to share that place with Margaery."
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